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  • Love…

    As I’m writing personal God link πŸ”—

    Being blessed by blessed playlist. By ashnic86

    Attention snatched by lyric:

    When a mountain tall ain’t nothing to climb

    When you don’t want More of nothing but time

    Sendy satiated 4/5 senses

    However, the 5th sense of sound was strange

    Sounded good sometimes

    Others it was scary/saddening/threatening / aka link πŸ”—

    It did not have enough of the spirit of love

    The words of The Word


    20250913

    Text conversation initiated by Mary about a woman’s perspective of seeking “True Love”

    My interpretation / response:

    It has been imprinted on our heart because we were made in His image. He is the perfect true love and he has that love toward us. We fall short of reciprocating the perfect love. We try to replicate the love, but the shortcomings are the different forms of sin.

    True love is multifaceted: mind, body, and spirit.
    Mind: we need to learn about the other to Know them, but in excess knowledge leads to being controlling/power hungry /pride . Shortcoming leads to ignorance/ luke warm/ idolizing other gods. Understanding what is good and evil is essential. Punishing your children is out of love

    Body: to be literally seen. connected physically. feelings and sensations were gifted to experience Being Alive… Excess leads to gluttony/ addition/ sloth/ lust. As you mentioned, leads to idolizing this one aspect by sexualizing, perverting, selling it.  Shortcoming leads to loneliness, depression, anxiety

    Spirit: to be seen and known beyond physical can only be done through using evidence from the mind and body. Knowing someone’s heart (/spirit) is not tangible/recordable/explained. How a person responds to situations, how they act around people, how they perceive the world, how they carry their cross, how aware they are to even having a cross.  It has to be understood from personal experience.

    When the spirit is righteous, the mind and body will be as well.  You can maybe fake the first two for a while, but the third will eventually come out. Love is bigger than our lives can encompass or express. We fall short. But we want it.

    I feel bad for Satan as he embodies all of the deadly sins. He just wants what we all want, but is too prideful to surrender to God’s love.  So he digs a deeper hole (I know how that feels). He fuels our frustrations for falling short. That manifests as shame and hiding (I find myself here sometimes, giving up several times a week on finding a partner). Or anger and running. Or depression.

  • Personal god…

    20251013

    After realizing my first love

    I was modifying my custom watch band

    Added it to my gratitude log..

    I made it the same size as my last one

    Did not fit perfect

    But good enough and was only a minor hindrance

    Marks on my wrist from band after taking off

    Remind me that I am in unnecessary discomfort… πŸ”—

    Discern… πŸ”—

    His is not the kind of discomfort… πŸ”— he wants me in

    Slowly

    Iteratively

    Refining

    Discerning discomfort

    Relieving

    Perfect

    Thank God for helping comfort me


    20250823 – original post

    A couple of minor swirls down the negative drain

    After catching a god wink… πŸ”—

    About to get up for the restroom from bed

    Took a sip of water

    Looked at the bag of mixed nuts

    Am I hungry or do I want to munch?

    I start to snack on it

    Put my head back as I was chewing

    No, no

    No to being lazy while discerning to eat

    If it is not serious enough to sit up to eat

    It is not serious to do at all

    Makes sense πŸ”—

    Close-Up bag and use restroom

    Attention snatched by lyric:

    Freedom on your own ain’t really free

    By little bird by Blessing Offor

    The thought crossed my mind a few times today

    Life beats sync perfectly πŸ”—

    Means I become a slave

    Be humble πŸ”—

    I am too imperfect

    To match a perfect beat

    He provides more mercy and grace than your imperfections

    The perfect dance is the one that is joyous

    The dance that is content in being in the spirit

    The dance of daily living

    The dance of helping others

    The dance of carrying your cross

    So when I become a perfect dancer, I’m supposed to be constantly doing what is being asked of me?

    Means I become a slave

    Brah

    You wish you could be a perfect dancer

    Discovering how he talks to me


    20250915

    After buying a key to How Happiness happens

    A God Wink… πŸ”— Typo

    Sure I might be silly… πŸ”—

    But I did happen to write about a tome earlier today

    Then a typo from a friendly text

  • I have seen it All!

    Chillaxing in bed at 6:00 p.m. looking out the window to beautiful trees and a mountain

    being blessed by blessedπŸ™ŒπŸ™Œ by ashnic86

    When Sunday morning by lacrae, Kirk Franklin

    Snapped my attention with the last 30 seconds

    Crescendoing at the verse:

    If what you see

    Is all you see

    Then you do not see

    All there is to be seen

    How to train your spirit πŸ”—

    Don’t come back πŸ”—

    If it was all you needed to live was what you got from your one sense

    What’s the purpose of the other senses?