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“Sorry my place is a mess”
What? It is so clean
Compared to my place
Conversation that echoed
As I was squatting and scrubbing the stain on the tile
Then another
Then another
Then the cabinet door
This place is a mess this close
Standing up it does not look that bad
But down here in the weeds
It is pretty dirty
Not super gross
Just needs a quick wipe
Revelation rhythm cleaning
And anxiety
And anxiety relief
Abide in the rhythm
Final thought
P.S. Sendy Nugget
20260211mh8f5
0445 wake gummy inhale brush teeth hair squat
Filing nails Godwink
Anxiety of length, shape, sharpness, skin peel
Looking for a better way to file
Explore with horizontal left right wiper one hand
And scratch filer with filing nail
My type of Godwink
My type of communication that He is with me
Explore comfort of cutting nail
Anxiety over shape, visibility, awkward position
Explore relaxing to fist
And cutting from mouth side relaxed cut from sword side
*snatched hunger Zen outta food
Feed her only can food
Feed her three times to make it seem like more
Interesting if I keep asking if she is hungry
And she only eats when she is
Then she would know she can trust herself
God did this to us
We made our own rules and religion
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By John Eldredge
Spoke to me and aligned with my history
Sent BflyMary
Just had a Godwink… 🔗 moment: Wild at Heart book is exactly what I need. I stopped at the part that I understood I was missing a lot of what a boy needed growing up with women and not tested much. Developed “why try” mentality. Weakened me so much thru out life, but now thru Christ everything has changed for me.
Closed the notebook and book. Looked at the verse of the day… Romans 5:3-4 Rejoice for problems and trials to build character for salvation….. God so Good