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Sabbath in my hammock
In my ambulance
Quite nice and relaxing in here
I want a beaded screen to keep out bugs
Like this gnat
Maybe I will kill it
Or capture it to release
Both seem like a lot of work
Why is it even here
Looks like it just keeps circling
Like caught in windy eddy
Maybe if I just blow toward the exit 🌬️
It will jump on the new path
😱 it worked!
God you so funny
Think about it
Final thought
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Intentionally taking a day of rest
no projects
discerning between daily required maintenance
brush squat sweep water indoor plants
tasks I can do while dancing and worshipping
discerning between typical work made for the week
watering outdoor plants that were watered by mother a coupld days ago
rearranging room configuartion to more efficiently train Zen
today doing a fast
my last RX bar bite was 2 minutes before sunset
my last calorie was gum by Liz at Dominic Balli concert at 1945ish
No dishes need to be cleaned
no food needs to be preped
no food will need a decision to eat between
no food will need a decision if healthy enough
no food will need to be concerned for provision and sought
*snatched incremental intentional distress practice
better than unexpected serious test
fasting once a week
simulate “starving”
versus and actual food crisis
Depend on the Lord
*unsnatched
*snatched when a friend asks for help
You help them
Be interpretable
For a higher priority
Elena in distress
To move out of house
Help
Less distress of unpacking slowly at storage
Not needed my help
God graced discernment for Elena
And I
To not ask
And not offer
*unsnatched
Just relaxing in hammock
No pressure to do anything
Not “allowed” to do anything
For the better of me
*snatched does crate training count as work for Zen
Will it give her rest today?
No
Will it give her more rest to be less anxious
Yes overall if it is a daily maintenance
If it is eventually understood
That I only leave when it is necessary
And not to worry when I leave
Because I will come back
And we can share a joyous moment of reunion
Then a Scooby snack
*unsnatched
Exodus 35:2-3 NLT
[2] You have six days each week for your ordinary work, but the seventh day must be a Sabbath day of complete rest, a holy day dedicated to the Lord. Anyone who works on that day must be put to death. [3] You must not even light a fire in any of your homes on the Sabbath.”
Discern when fire means work
Do not warm up food
Eat only what you planned for on the day of preparation
You do not need physical light
To rest
Seek the spiritual light
To see
And feel true warmth
mental marker timestamp hearting a moment
Exodus 40 anointing oil
I want to carry an oil
To heart my day
participate oil
Oil says what it is good at holding
You must participate to attach your feeling to it
Lavender for relaxation
It cannot force you to relax
But it can help you if you pavlov yourself
Peppermint is invigorating
You must train to uphold it’s invigorating properties
They are all for the kingdom
I want to do them all
They all look like fun
Especially if it is for the kingdom
I will not be good at any of them
But I want to do all of them
Just pick one and honor God in it
I can honor God in all of them
Will you be a skilled craftsman that God can call upon to use?
No
Not to the standard that I would want to give to God
Choose one
Until you can honor Him with an offering that will bless Him
Then you may participate
Another activity
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During prayer40
I was seeking joy for Zen
As I prayed
The Helper brought to mind
What I considered as joy
For myself
*snatched pride of knowing better
I did not need to love myself
Before loving others
I hated myself
I can just learn What Love is
And do that for other people
I can deny all those things if reciprocated
Because I would do those for myself
If I loved myself
I did not know how to FEEL love
How to make it heart knowledge
I only knew what I learned
Through observation or question
Not through experience
**snatched watch somemonkey gift candy to someone they love
Lamb does the same
Rejects any in return
Or self to self
** unsnatch
Others worth to give what I have seen others give others
Or give them what I observe them to like
*unsnatch
Worth giving joy to now
Worth seeking
Worth experiencing
Source of my annoyance to Zen
Source of the annoyance toward me
Treat others
Final thought
As you want to be treated