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Walk Zen airport brush inhale banana apple
Hebrews 1:9 NLT
[9] You love justice and hate evil. Therefore, O God, your God has anointed you, pouring out the oil of joy on you more than on anyone else.”
Praying to overflow of joy that I can fill any cup nearby
Jesus is the spring of joy
Final thought
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Woke at 4 and needed to potty
Anxious about training Zen
Waited until 5 so we can both potty same time
Decided not to cuz cold and tired
Layer back down
Prayed for strength
Since it was the Lord’s hour
The first and best of my day
Was I malnourished?
No
I ate plenty all day yesterday
Was I mentally exhausted?
No
I knew what I could be doing
No simulations necessary
Was I spiritually depleted?
I just had Sabbath Saturday and the Lord’s Day at church
Twice to volunteer
It is spiritual battle
My purpose is under siege
Just move
Train potty to reduce marking
Morning routine
Recognize the warfare
Final thought
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During prayer40
I was seeking joy for Zen
As I prayed
The Helper brought to mind
What I considered as joy
For myself
*snatched pride of knowing better
I did not need to love myself
Before loving others
I hated myself
I can just learn What Love is
And do that for other people
I can deny all those things if reciprocated
Because I would do those for myself
If I loved myself
I did not know how to FEEL love
How to make it heart knowledge
I only knew what I learned
Through observation or question
Not through experience
**snatched watch somemonkey gift candy to someone they love
Lamb does the same
Rejects any in return
Or self to self
** unsnatch
Others worth to give what I have seen others give others
Or give them what I observe them to like
*unsnatch
Worth giving joy to now
Worth seeking
Worth experiencing
Source of my annoyance to Zen
Source of the annoyance toward me
Treat others
Final thought
As you want to be treated