LamMoving

Tag: HolyNudge

  • Everyone dance

    20251018

    After realizing what I found or what found me

    Funny comic where every step

    Must be in rhythm of 4:4 pause

    Project listed … 🔗

  • Joy..

    20251018

    I found joy this morning

    Woke up at 0545

    Only one beat of hesitation (pause tool can be used by enemy as wel)

    Jumped out for a big breathe

    More gratitude logged …🔗

    I asked the Lord

    What song to play

    His Autoqueue put on (He already knew I was going to ask and look at my phone)

    I found Joy by Duane Caleb

    But Lord

    I do not know

    Who that is

    But I do like the title

    Beat is not immediately resonating

    But I shall wait and trust

    And I was blessed

    With my newest theme song

  • Dead eyes

    20251028

    Purgatory message

    I found out what dead eyes you were talking about that I wear sometimes. 
    It likely was worn when you were upset at me
    I felt shame for upsetting you even if it was only triggering a disproportionate memory
    I had to kill the behavior that got me there
    Or kill the language I used
    Or kill the road to this memory
    To keep your joy enduring
    I rather sacrifice any of those
    Than lose you
    It was a new me every time
    I needed it to grow my spiritual patience
    Each time to work closer to you
    Hoping you recognize my spirit
    Of Love for you
    You broke more of my unstable foundation of being able to see anything through
    You broke my spirit of being able to be logical in disagreements
    You broke my spirit of being curious of the infinite universe
    You broke my boundary from sloth to restful naps
    You broke my boundary from night time routines to necessary self care
    You broke my boundary of trust by knowing my boundary for unfaithful acts... And crossing it.
    But it was worth all of it 
    To still Love as you are right now
    I will love you now
    In hopes you will love me
    In whatever altitude you will allow

    I found my shame sore spots

    Disappointing someone I respect

    I have to kill the behavior that got me there

    I do not want to see that look

    Killing me

    Rather kill that behavior first

    Before another attempt happens again

    20251017

    I was accused of dead eyes

    Dead eyes accused me

    Eyes that lead to death of previous peace

    Eyes that have taken over

    What was