LamMoving

Tag: HolyNudge

  • Dead eyes

    20251028

    Purgatory message

    I found out what dead eyes you were talking about that I wear sometimes. 
    It likely was worn when you were upset at me
    I felt shame for upsetting you even if it was only triggering a disproportionate memory
    I had to kill the behavior that got me there
    Or kill the language I used
    Or kill the road to this memory
    To keep your joy enduring
    I rather sacrifice any of those
    Than lose you
    It was a new me every time
    I needed it to grow my spiritual patience
    Each time to work closer to you
    Hoping you recognize my spirit
    Of Love for you
    You broke more of my unstable foundation of being able to see anything through
    You broke my spirit of being able to be logical in disagreements
    You broke my spirit of being curious of the infinite universe
    You broke my boundary from sloth to restful naps
    You broke my boundary from night time routines to necessary self care
    You broke my boundary of trust by knowing my boundary for unfaithful acts... And crossing it.
    But it was worth all of it 
    To still Love as you are right now
    I will love you now
    In hopes you will love me
    In whatever altitude you will allow

    I found my shame sore spots

    Disappointing someone I respect

    I have to kill the behavior that got me there

    I do not want to see that look

    Killing me

    Rather kill that behavior first

    Before another attempt happens again

    20251017

    I was accused of dead eyes

    Dead eyes accused me

    Eyes that lead to death of previous peace

    Eyes that have taken over

    What was

  • Little t trail

    20251017

    Trigger: Woman at the well

    Ashnic – Dang spoon feed -Dang salvation – Dang partner

    Lying by omission is the enemy spirit

    Little (t) truth bread crumb

    To lead to the righteous path

    To lead to the big (T) Truth

    Share the crumbs

    With all

    Those that appreciate and are curious

    Shall seek for the source

    Example 1:
    Why are you doing 100% linen clothes?
    -Answer Big T: God told me to. 
      That is like pointing the top of a mountain and saying, that is why. It is too far for people to see

    -Answer little t: I find peace when picking my clothes in the morning with less selection
      That points them to the trail head that leads to the top of the mountain you are pointing to

    Why are you joyously smiling today?
    -Answer Big T: Sharing God's Joy
      That may be received as "You were gifted something by God that I was not"

    -Answer little t: Just before seeing you and you asking that question, I saw a rare bird nesting in a tree at the park
      Maybe the next time they see any bird nesting in a tree, they will be curious if it is the rare bird. The rare bird that somehow gave me a joyous smile

  • Dance instructor

    20251017

    Simplest bounce dance move to initialize syncing

    You can stay there the whole song

    Next level adds a different limb

    Like a step

    Next level is to add arms

    Next to is add head bob

    Everyone on beat

    but doing different levels

    Center of circle is the simplest move

    The most base beat

    Singing the song

    Each level is a layer of dancers a step away

    Outside is the most advanced and moving around the center