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“Sorry my place is a mess”
What? It is so clean
Compared to my place
Conversation that echoed
As I was squatting and scrubbing the stain on the tile
Then another
Then another
Then the cabinet door
This place is a mess this close
Standing up it does not look that bad
But down here in the weeds
It is pretty dirty
Not super gross
Just needs a quick wipe
Revelation rhythm cleaning
And anxiety
And anxiety relief
Abide in the rhythm
Final thought
P.S. Sendy Nugget
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We will grow into her name
Sitting coffee beach pier
[18] Ishmael’s descendants occupied the region from Havilah to Shur, which is east of Egypt in the direction of Asshur. There they lived in open hostility toward all their relatives.
Genesis 25:18 NLT
Many of the exiles seem to be East of where they want to be
Left from the right
Go east
Head to the right
Head to the righteous
Do not be left behind
Do not be misguided in your own righteousness
“The Great West”
Is the human conquest to conquer and control
Illusion
Heading west is actually heading backwards on timeline
Irony
Evolving tech is taking many farther away from God and making our own golden calf
Imagery
Head home
Final thought
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Whoever Jesus sets free is free indeed
Vices by Isley
Jesus set me free of my sins
So I am free indeed to eat of the spiritual fruit
Spirit lead me
By influence music, Michael ketterer
Gripped me
And yeeted me into the air
In gratitude
Painful gratitude
For God
For Jesus
For the Holy Spirit
Trust in you even when I cannot see you
Spirit lead me by influence music, Michael keeterer
God showed my mind’s eye
Myself crying alone in the middle of the night after my father left
For my mother
And she was sleeping in the closet
Probably crying
But I thought it was just to be away from me
But I trusted her to be there
At a minimum
Oh Sendy
If you knew what it meant
That I do everything I knew how to do
I am so sorry i did not know how to do it
The way you wanted
But I did not know
How could I have known
No one wanted to teach me
They were there
So I trusted them
But no one wanted to teach me
And I was so afraid of making any mistakes
Why am I not allowed to make mistakes?
You do not want to teach me nor allow me to make mistakes?
So when I found a God who made everything
That allows me to make mistakes
And says He is always there for me
Giving me the righteous rules
Lightly admonishing me
Unless I disobey
Then firmly
Unless I genuinely did not know
Then mercily
Unless I disobeyed when I did know
Then passionately
Unless I am a bent reed
Then gently
*snatched patience
I thought I had it
I was prideful
I repent
It was my strength in self denial, self control
That shutdown my emotions and responses