202602181037mh2f8
“Sorry my place is a mess”
What? It is so clean
Compared to my place
Conversation that echoed
As I was squatting and scrubbing the stain on the tile
Then another
Then another
Then the cabinet door
This place is a mess this close
Standing up it does not look that bad
But down here in the weeds
It is pretty dirty
Not super gross
Just needs a quick wipe
Revelation rhythm cleaning
And anxiety
And anxiety relief
Abide in the rhythm
Final thought
P.S. Sendy Nugget
202602120613mh6f6
0445 wake inhale gummy inhale brush teeth hair squat worship
Do not judge me
Are there rules against this?!
Why have I not been exploring like this before?
There is nothing illegal about this
It is within the rules of not ingesting poison
There is so much adventure to be had
The door was 300 spartan kicked down
Why play only near the fence by the border?
There is so much to do INSIDE the garden
*snatched peace on earth
Is heaven on earth
To have my anxiety of what to eat gone
To have my anxiety of what to drink gone
To have my anxiety of what to wear gone
** snatched excited to dress in the morning
Excited to be seen
Excited to have your armor on
to take on the day
Excited about how it will help you
take on the day
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Creativity within the rules
P.S. Less creative / Less Work / more lazy /more convenient to do it using ingredients from outside of the rule
2026020100611mh5f5
0440-0515 tired anxiety in bed
Zen sniffs me to get up
The name is going to fit her well one day
Brush squat dress for the day inhale
Read wild at heart by John Eldredge for book study with DatMike
Pg 10 took me for a tangent
After talking about a boy’s nature is to desire battle, an adventure to live, and a beauty to love
All resonate with what was not modeled, encouraged, and in some instances, quelled
Into a self denying, passive, flowy personality
*snatched to consistency
I heard a gear shift in my head and the image of a white silly cloth unwinding clockwise to be closer to being made creaseless and clean
Revelation graced… 🔗
What I did not receive from my uprising as a boy to be aman
I did receive an important notion
My most emotional moment of leaving the Tran family
May not have been (to me) appropriately comforted
Ultimately I was comforted when I was brought back to them
Consistency is key
I was not the happiest I could have been
But I was the happiest I had experienced
**snatched could should
Excommunicate could and should from lexicon
They are words of worry and anxiety
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Sendy had the complementary experience
Complimentary
Final thought