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Tag: seek

  • Zen

    202602130611mh3f7

    Whoever Jesus sets free is free indeed

    Vices by Isley

    Jesus set me free of my sins

    So I am free indeed to eat of the spiritual fruit

    Spirit lead me

    By influence music, Michael ketterer

    Gripped me

    And yeeted me into the air

    In gratitude

    Painful gratitude

    For God

    For Jesus

    For the Holy Spirit

    Trust in you even when I cannot see you

    Spirit lead me by influence music, Michael keeterer

    God showed my mind’s eye

    Myself crying alone in the middle of the night after my father left

    For my mother

    And she was sleeping in the closet

    Probably crying

    But I thought it was just to be away from me

    But I trusted her to be there

    At a minimum

    Oh Sendy

    If you knew what it meant

    That I do everything I knew how to do

    I am so sorry i did not know how to do it

    The way you wanted

    But I did not know

    How could I have known

    No one wanted to teach me

    They were there

    So I trusted them

    But no one wanted to teach me

    And I was so afraid of making any mistakes

    Why am I not allowed to make mistakes?

    You do not want to teach me nor allow me to make mistakes?

    So when I found a God who made everything

    That allows me to make mistakes

    And says He is always there for me

    Giving me the righteous rules

    Lightly admonishing me

    Unless I disobey

    Then firmly

    Unless I genuinely did not know

    Then mercily

    Unless I disobeyed when I did know

    Then passionately

    Unless I am a bent reed

    Then gently

    *snatched patience

    I thought I had it

    I was prideful

    I repent

    It was my strength in self denial, self control

    That shutdown my emotions and responses

  • Stay in garden

    202602120613mh6f6

    0445 wake inhale gummy inhale brush teeth hair squat worship

    Do not judge me

    Cereal and Coffee

    Are there rules against this?!

    Why have I not been exploring like this before?

    There is nothing illegal about this

    It is within the rules of not ingesting poison

    There is so much adventure to be had

    The door was 300 spartan kicked down

    Why play only near the fence by the border?

    There is so much to do INSIDE the garden

    *snatched peace on earth

    Is heaven on earth

    To have my anxiety of what to eat gone

    To have my anxiety of what to drink gone

    To have my anxiety of what to wear gone

    ** snatched excited to dress in the morning

    Excited to be seen

    Excited to have your armor on

    to take on the day

    Excited about how it will help you

    take on the day

    **

    *

    Creativity within the rules

    P.S. Less creative / Less Work / more lazy /more convenient to do it using ingredients from outside of the rule

  • History aligns

    2026020100611mh5f5

    0440-0515 tired anxiety in bed

    Zen sniffs me to get up

    The name is going to fit her well one day

    Brush squat dress for the day inhale

    Read wild at heart by John Eldredge for book study with DatMike

    Pg 10 took me for a tangent

    After talking about a boy’s nature is to desire battle, an adventure to live, and a beauty to love

    All resonate with what was not modeled, encouraged, and in some instances, quelled

    Into a self denying, passive, flowy personality

    *snatched to consistency

    I heard a gear shift in my head and the image of a white silly cloth unwinding clockwise to be closer to being made creaseless and clean

    Revelation graced… 🔗

    What I did not receive from my uprising as a boy to be aman

    I did receive an important notion

    My most emotional moment of leaving the Tran family

    May not have been (to me) appropriately comforted

    Ultimately I was comforted when I was brought back to them

    Consistency is key

    I was not the happiest I could have been

    But I was the happiest I had experienced

    **snatched could should

    Excommunicate could and should from lexicon

    They are words of worry and anxiety

    ***

    Sendy had the complementary experience

    Complimentary

    Final thought