LamMoving

Tag: seek

  • Safe

    202603120613mh6f7

    No hangover from a late night dose of Sendy

    I was Feeling the vibe

    I was not allowed to explore the boundaries

    I was told it was not safe

    I was shut down to adventure

    I was not allowed to anything

    I was only allowed to tail along

    I was not questioned or berated if I smiled

    Fake happiness

    I did not know

    Where boundaries were to stay away from

    I was not allowed to ask

    I did not know what I was doing wrong

    I was not allowed to ask

    You were shown it was not safe when they leave

    You were not able to explore your boundaries

    Inside of a deep relationship

    That journey is tiring

    Since it is a new neuro pathway

    Since it is tiring it needs to be worth it

    You need to stick around for anything

    Because I do not know what kind of help I will need

    Assume I know nothing

    I am new here

    Assume I have some imaginary gold chain

    That was actually made of lead

    Weighing me down

    These neuro pathways are a difficult construction site

    I will be there for it all

    It is safe

    Final thought

    Outro: Sabbath by Tekoa, Watobi

  • Speak to me

    202603111416m1f3

    Swirling in despair

    I pray and cry to the Lord to help me

    Open the Bible to Mark of the parable of the tenants killing the son

    1 chronicles of David’s messengers being humiliated by Hanuman

    Isaiah 45:10 to not question the Lord’s Will and He has a plan thru Jesus

    It all points to Jesus

    Jesus was the perfect fruit of the spirit

    Live like Him and produce fruit

    Jesus is the answer

    Final thought

  • Too well

    202603100739mh5f8

    After checking in with my current feels

    I just have another Sendy Nugget

    I am so rich with information

    About her

    I know her so well

    I can have a conversation with her

    Without her

    Here

    I know her too well

    To know we will enjoy this

    To know God revealed this

    To know her heart

    To know I Yada her

    Because he Yada me first

    I could not see the Yada before

    Because I did not know what it looked like

    *Snatched I am an outsider

    Even in the family

    Towed 🛻 along out of necessity

    The good family and love

    Was for them

    Not me

    Thanks for having me along to witness

    To have second hand, contact feels

    Sure wish I had that first hand experience of that feeling

    *

    We will be

    Final thought