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It was a bit scarring and sore to not have many memories of love
I remember asking about how to manage my tiny finances of my piggy bank in the big boy bank
Brushed off
Sad
Poked at unheard and unvalued
But God
Was working through them to not teach me
Because it is not important
By seeking at all
I was aware
And will figure it out
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Seeking answer to my prayer last night
Excited to get up at 0445 to inhale deeply twice
And seek the answer
When I made eye contact with myself
I realized what my expression was
Revelation graced it looks into the soul
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Keep it
It is the gateway into the body
Gateway into the soul
Give or receive
Reveals you
Do I look away in shame?
I looked away in guilt
Do I look away in fear
But I was alone
As a child
When Dad threw mom
No one console
Just turn around into my room
And cry to myselfA
Alone
No one wanted to play
Did I get yelled at for looking away?
Keep eye contact
It will tell you
What the rest of the body feels
You will eat a bite of that feeling from the other person
Snack on one image of that anger
People yell less when you just listen
Unjust to be yelled at regardless
No one will look at me
I am just looking around for recognition
Attention
Someone recognized me
But they look annoyed
No one is happy to see me
The more you resemble someone that loved you
The more they are happy to see you