LamMoving

Tag: tremble

  • Safe

    202603120613mh6f7

    No hangover from a late night dose of Sendy

    I was Feeling the vibe

    I was not allowed to explore the boundaries

    I was told it was not safe

    I was shut down to adventure

    I was not allowed to anything

    I was only allowed to tail along

    I was not questioned or berated if I smiled

    Fake happiness

    I did not know

    Where boundaries were to stay away from

    I was not allowed to ask

    I did not know what I was doing wrong

    I was not allowed to ask

    You were shown it was not safe when they leave

    You were not able to explore your boundaries

    Inside of a deep relationship

    That journey is tiring

    Since it is a new neuro pathway

    Since it is tiring it needs to be worth it

    You need to stick around for anything

    Because I do not know what kind of help I will need

    Assume I know nothing

    I am new here

    Assume I have some imaginary gold chain

    That was actually made of lead

    Weighing me down

    These neuro pathways are a difficult construction site

    I will be there for it all

    It is safe

    Final thought

    Outro: Sabbath by Tekoa, Watobi

  • Too well

    202603100739mh5f8

    After checking in with my current feels

    I just have another Sendy Nugget

    I am so rich with information

    About her

    I know her so well

    I can have a conversation with her

    Without her

    Here

    I know her too well

    To know we will enjoy this

    To know God revealed this

    To know her heart

    To know I Yada her

    Because he Yada me first

    I could not see the Yada before

    Because I did not know what it looked like

    *Snatched I am an outsider

    Even in the family

    Towed 🛻 along out of necessity

    The good family and love

    Was for them

    Not me

    Thanks for having me along to witness

    To have second hand, contact feels

    Sure wish I had that first hand experience of that feeling

    *

    We will be

    Final thought

  • Feel now

    202603100722mh6f8

    I can practice snapping into focus

    And reassigning feelings

    To good ones

    Feel the pain

    In your muscle

    Focus and feel what it is attached to

    Feel all around it

    By moving it

    Experiencing it

    Responding to it

    Explore it

    Stretch it

    Flex it

    Learn its anatomical name

    Learn its purpose

    Learn how it is fueled

    Learn how it is strengthened

    Feel the pain

    Of the shame

    Focus on why it occured

    Focus on what you were doing

    On what you could have done

    On what was out of your control

    On what was not your fault

    On what impact it had how you act now

    On how God has turned it into good

    Do not worry about why

    Do not worry about vengeance of injustice

    Do not worry understanding outside God’s Will

    Focus on feelings in the current second moment and circumstance

    Final thought