LamMoving

Tag: worship

  • Safe

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    No hangover from a late night dose of Sendy

    I was Feeling the vibe

    I was not allowed to explore the boundaries

    I was told it was not safe

    I was shut down to adventure

    I was not allowed to anything

    I was only allowed to tail along

    I was not questioned or berated if I smiled

    Fake happiness

    I did not know

    Where boundaries were to stay away from

    I was not allowed to ask

    I did not know what I was doing wrong

    I was not allowed to ask

    You were shown it was not safe when they leave

    You were not able to explore your boundaries

    Inside of a deep relationship

    That journey is tiring

    Since it is a new neuro pathway

    Since it is tiring it needs to be worth it

    You need to stick around for anything

    Because I do not know what kind of help I will need

    Assume I know nothing

    I am new here

    Assume I have some imaginary gold chain

    That was actually made of lead

    Weighing me down

    These neuro pathways are a difficult construction site

    I will be there for it all

    It is safe

    Final thought

    Outro: Sabbath by Tekoa, Watobi

  • Speak to me

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    Swirling in despair

    I pray and cry to the Lord to help me

    Open the Bible to Mark of the parable of the tenants killing the son

    1 chronicles of David’s messengers being humiliated by Hanuman

    Isaiah 45:10 to not question the Lord’s Will and He has a plan thru Jesus

    It all points to Jesus

    Jesus was the perfect fruit of the spirit

    Live like Him and produce fruit

    Jesus is the answer

    Final thought

  • Unraveling

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    As I nourish with sourdough, crispy puff grain, kettle, pink salt, Greek chickpeas with parsley and cumin from trader Joe’s

    This might be the third time that I recalled the Lord echoing in my mind the phrase

    Xyz I do not want to unravel my reality and spiral

    I can relate

    Meditating / processing / praying

    Physical / mental / spiritual

    *snatched so good at cutting ties physically?

    How about mentally?

    How about emotionally?

    To a person?

    Do not see them

    Do not think about them

    Do not allow them to invoke undesired feelings

    **snatched unable to shake my emotion attached

    To my soul bonded partner

    I do not want to

    ***snatched wrapping vine

    Around each other

    Intertwining

    Milw gia sena by dim Angelo, Nikko sunset

    Staying attached to the Great Vine

    Sewing the reality of love and the cloth of life

    Weaving a beautiful tapestry

    Becoming one

    Undo the knots to redo and relieve the tension

    Final thought