LamMoving

Tag: worship

  • Eternity

    20251017

    What if I told you the best feeling that you ever experienced is only a fractionated of what you could feel in eternity?

    What would you want to feel for eternity

    Spirited Joy

  • Dead eyes

    20251028

    Purgatory message

    I found out what dead eyes you were talking about that I wear sometimes. 
    It likely was worn when you were upset at me
    I felt shame for upsetting you even if it was only triggering a disproportionate memory
    I had to kill the behavior that got me there
    Or kill the language I used
    Or kill the road to this memory
    To keep your joy enduring
    I rather sacrifice any of those
    Than lose you
    It was a new me every time
    I needed it to grow my spiritual patience
    Each time to work closer to you
    Hoping you recognize my spirit
    Of Love for you
    You broke more of my unstable foundation of being able to see anything through
    You broke my spirit of being able to be logical in disagreements
    You broke my spirit of being curious of the infinite universe
    You broke my boundary from sloth to restful naps
    You broke my boundary from night time routines to necessary self care
    You broke my boundary of trust by knowing my boundary for unfaithful acts... And crossing it.
    But it was worth all of it 
    To still Love as you are right now
    I will love you now
    In hopes you will love me
    In whatever altitude you will allow

    I found my shame sore spots

    Disappointing someone I respect

    I have to kill the behavior that got me there

    I do not want to see that look

    Killing me

    Rather kill that behavior first

    Before another attempt happens again

    20251017

    I was accused of dead eyes

    Dead eyes accused me

    Eyes that lead to death of previous peace

    Eyes that have taken over

    What was

  • Sponsorship

    20251017

    After it was following another little trail

    I was looking for a meal to share for the Chosen Bible study

    No pizza places open before the start of the study

    Searching for Any food open before then

    Opens the search very large

    I have been on this train before

    The train of overwhelm

    Overwhelmed by too many choices

    If I could at least support a Christian business

    Well that narrows it down by a lot

    Many do not identify as so

    Why do I not start a list of my own

    Of Christian based restaurants that I have tried

    They do not need to sponsor me

    Or they can if they want

    I will be transparent if they are

    Not to flaunt or guilt other businesses

    It is just a categorical fact

    The business that sponsors

    Or the business does not