Tag: Zen

  • Make Him Proud

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    The truth is by Megan Woods by ashnic86

    Seeds of doubt

    This is Sendy and I

    We do not feel Good enough

    But I would not change a thing

    About you

    You grow all on your own

    I just want to hold you

    Support

    However you need me to

    To move toward joy

    To move toward peace

    To move toward love

    To move toward God

    Same same

    Final initial thought

    Godwink to dispel seeds of doubts

    Jesus rebuked Peter

    The rock

    Trust only in the Lord

    I random digital flip Bible

    With prayer to speak to me

    Judges 13:23 strummed a heart cord

    If my morning routine were wrong

    God would not accept the burnt offerings of what my past offers for His kingdom

    For Him to use for His Will

    If I am eating spiritual fruit

    I am following the Good Omens

    It is my favorite time

    With the Lord

    When I can use whatever voice I want

    To worship Him

    But I am looking for the one

    That will allow me to worship as long as possible

    So the one that can go the full range of notes

    With the lowest effort

    To reduce fatigue

    God would not have accepted the grain offering

    The seeds of my future

    The imaginary possibilities of infinity

    Any of which God can make a reality

    If He is willing

    He would reveal

    My heart’s desire

    He would choose to fulfill

    Or mercifully rescue me from

    *snatched take punches

    To my character

    With judgement

    Unsolicited advice

    Yet no answer

    To my questions

    ** snatched so dumb

    How people do not understand

    What is righteous

    I am so dumb

    How am I to think I know everything

    I know nothing

    But what I do know

    Everyone else should automatically know

    Because I am dumb

    And I know it

    Does not have to make sense

    To be true

    **

    Attacks on my character

    Has been constant in my life

    Doubting my ability

    To understand banking

    To understand how to make decisions

    To understand my own desires

    To understand my own preference for joy

    Such as eating salty food

    Or eating sweet things

    People did not want to teach me

    They said I would figure it out

    Meant to be a compliment

    But it fed into my worthlessness

    To be worth someone’s time/energy

    To be spent on

  • No Lord over me

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    Reading wild at heart by John eldredge chapter 10

    I rather you do nothing for me

    Than do something

    To Lord over me

    Do not guilt me

    I rather figure it out myself

    Than be enslaved from spite

    So I do not ask

    I do not receive

    In fear of either

    What does it look like for someone

    To do something

    Not out of obligation

    With no expectation of reciprocation

    Out of love

    Only one Lord
    Who is humble

    Final initial thought

    Sendy did not do this to me

    She showed love in this way

  • Define desire

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    Exploring my joys

    Means also exploring my desires

    I have been enjoying slow morning

    Not being in a rush

    My desire is to not be rushed

    My desire is to peacefully

    Calmly

    Do what I need to do

    Then

    Do

    My desire is to lose myself

    To the worship music

    To dance

    To sing

    My desire to rest

    In the Lord

    And feel no pain

    And be present in my body

    In my current surroundings

    Safely

    Comfortably

    I have been nomadic

    So long

    Sojourning

    My greatest rest I have found

    Is to let go of my anxieties

    Not sleep many hours

    To awaken groggy

    And still tired

    When I can move

    Freely

    Free from pain

    Physically

    Mentally

    Spiritually

    What is left is the soul of gratitude

    I will constantly come here

    To rest

    Daily

    As much as I can

    What do I desire to do before coming back?

    Making the space more comfortable to worship in

    To get there more efficiently

    To have more time there

    To be at my best

    To not waste my time being tired there

    I will try to be awake

    Even if I do not feel awake

    To squeeze the fruit

    From different perspectives

    Different angles

    Different layers

    Different realities

    Different music

    Different devotional

    What else do I desire?

    Physical is easy

    Mental is easy

    What does my soul desire?