I was disappointed for the last time
When putting my worth in my partner
I have constantly had to kill myself
My thoughts
My spirit
Because I was constantly wrong
Some justifiably
Some less
Then I realized
I needed to stop seeking my worth
In humanity
I must seek it
From God above
The hurtful accusations are less painful
When you know your identity in Christ
When you realize the painful lens
That the other person is looking through
Without the love of Christ
Jesus saves
Final initial thought
After some snacking
Recognizing the difference
Between soul-mind-body
Sidewalk art illusion
Soul can override mind signals to body actions
Mind automatically processes
But can be controlled
Like blinking or breathing
You are in control
Final initial thought
Queuing up some fixes
Seeking joy
Empathic enough for forgiveness
I see enough from your feelings
That I can forgive you
I may not feel the full weight
That you feel from it
I do not need to yank on those chains
My motivation is to have you
Eat of the spiritual fruit
Because the joy I see in you
Is something I want for myself
I may not feel the full weight
That you feel from it
I want to get as close as I can
And bask in it
For as long as I can
I do not even have to be participating
Just the countenance of it
Uplifts my soul
My soul is blessed
I support your growth
To be a fruit vampire
Gnom Gnom
Final initial thought