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  • Neighborhood stroll thought

    Interesting that proper form for running is to land under your body. So you are rushing to get under yourself. Hurrying to get to the present.

    Vs walking you start under yourself and propel forward. Sometimes you will have more progress walking than running into situations

  • The Chosen: A Blended Harmony Of Gospels, Chapter 2

    The story of Zechariah’s prophecy of his son John after being mute for doubting the message from God’s angel has me so curious of the event. Did he speak like a man possessed by the Holy Spirit, where his family and friends would say, “that isn’t like his normal manners or speech, it must be the Holy Spirit!”? I envision him holding John like Simba and his eyes lit like crystal balls as he spoke.

    The story of Joseph led me to a potential microcosm. The child was not his creation, but he was in love with the creators (both mother and Heavenly Father). When Joseph realized he was chosen to care for this honorable role, he humbled himself and fulfilled his duty.

    Microcosm: The closest we can get to creating anything is a child. Even in that, how hard did you physically “work” to create it. I would say, That was actually the easiest and most fun part. In actuality, we have not created anything, but only rearranged and shepherded the things the Lord has made. We were chosen by the Creator to till and tend to his stuff in His house. He’s set up the beautiful, living decor by defining the laws of how they exist. We just need to harmonize with it and play nicely with the over visitors. He invited me to have a relationship with Him even though I break His rules. He just wants what’s best for me.

    If I were Joseph, there would be a part of me that does not feel as invested in the success of the child that I did not physically father. Just as, I would not be so grateful and gentle to a garden that I did not spend my life meticulously planning, planting, and growing. Give a child a toy and take it away 7 minutes later and it will cry as if you took away its arm because they own it. Anything outside of that toy, they will gladly throw and stomp on.

    How proud was Joseph to bring Peace to the world? I too can contribute by bringing harmony with the Holy Spirit.

    Dear Heavenly Father

    Thank you for being the ultimate Giver.

    You gave us a paradise to live in

    You gave us rules to be in harmony with it

    You gave us your only begotten son, Jesus, to teach us

    You gave us a way maker to salvation

    You gave us the Advocate to guide us

    You faithfully give us daily bread and living water

    You faithfully give us new mercies every day

    We don’t deserve it, but you faithfully love us

    In Your loving son, Jesus’, name

    Amen

  • Silly maybe

    Phone waiting did not work, but changing the flight in the app surprisingly did work. Nice job United Airlines.

    Casually woke up to pack and have breakfast at the lobby. Devine timing that I finished everything, without haste, and made it to their hotel with 2 minutes to spare.

    I had the genius idea of holding hostage their luggage since they were cutting it close to their tour time. I dropped them off with 5 minutes to spare. Devine timing continued.

    I decided to go get lunch. Finding parking took way too long. Not enough of it even on a non-peak day/hour. $2.30 / hour

    Yam noodles at Rice Bar

    It was Chipotle style ordering. I liked it. Reasonably priced too

    Moved to a garage for $19 for the day. Walked to Natural History museum. Learned that one of our deepest diving submarines goes ~ 14,000 ft down. I wonder how many species of marine life we do not know about beyond that depth!

    Christine and Nicole met up with me after their tour ended. We walked thru the ice age to human impact. Dinos. Cousin mammals. Up to climate change and stars. Back down to rocks and gems.

    Walked to dinner reservation

    Swordfish and meatballs were delicious. Fancy dinner prices…

    Walked to Washington monument and saw a bunch of people doing this… So monkey see, monkey do:

    Then went to visit Lincoln and MLK.

    Earned our Gelato and hung out like cool kids outside

    Drove over to Madam’s Organ jazz bar, but there was a $10 cover. Maybe next time. Free tiki bar sounded more fun.

    And it was

    4 fun types of tiki cups (Panda, fair lady, bathtub ducky, in love tiki-man 😍). Good DJ

    Reflection

    Maybe it was somewhat silly to extend the day for the opportunity to hang out with a new friend. Maybe not. Mike is a lifelong friend that I will see many a times. I needed to balance seizing the opportunity that God graciously provided, without taking for granted my good friend nor looking too much like the single dude desperately trying to hit on the gal. I could have extended my trip to two days and really crash their whole party, but I think I struck the good balance.

    I do so [sarcastically] good at playing 50 chess moves ahead to see all of the possible good/bad interactions in my hypothetical fantasy relationship. I did prophesize, and was mildly correct, about the conflict that would be caused by my close (and large) family relationship would have on my last intimate relationship. Also, the pessimistic outlook of life and the opposite of the “benefit of the doubt” towards people….most hurtfully me.

    How much can I gather in two dinners and two tiki bars? Only enough to want to gather more.

    So much movement in her spirit. Literally, she has to make a special calendar titled “where am I” to remind her of the tentative plans for where she will be sojourning.

    She makes Panda tiki cups dance to music.

    She has an AI generated, biblical described angel as her phone background.

    She loves weird, creepy looking things because the Bible says we will need to have courage to not be afraid of the angels that look like odd creatures.

    She has an idea of maybe what she wants, but will not stress about what to pick until she needs to make the decision.

    She carries a metal credit card holder

    Getting nails done is usually a turn off for me, but they were tasteful. Eggs tasty-ful. But not too tasty since the point of them is to prevent her from biting her nails

    She can laugh at herself

    She does not get offended when I give considerations for her plans

    She honors other’s choices without judgement. Being a lighting person for food photographer. Just supporting

    She takes care of her mother

    She helps manage the family properties

    I have not been able to ascertain what she actually likes to do

    Dear Heavenly Father

    Thank You for Your Mercy and Grace.

    Whether it is a mere fleeing test to see my response and search my heart for selfish, self-flesh, desires or answering my prayers. You are good and know what is best for me. I will try to listen for your directions. Do my best to discern Your voice over my own (or the enemy’s). Lean into the painful awkwardness and courageously step towards your light.

    I pray for my friends as we all seem to struggle with our worldly problems. You perfectly made us to be more than a people dependent on the world. We are only dependent on You. You are the Great Provider and we only need to trust in You. Please continue to reveal yourself to all of us, in our special ways of understanding, that only You know, so we can maybe one day get it thru our thick spirited skull to trust You.

    Silly to be so arrogant to say, “If I was a disciple of Jesus that first hand witnessed miracles, I would have walked on water with full Trust in the Lord”. Truthfully, the mustard seed is not found under the hay stack of doubt.

    I pray that all our faith can grow to be AT LEAST the size of a mustard seed. Please continue to nourish us with your living water, Lord.

    I pray all this in Jesus name.

    Amen