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  • Anchor totem

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    Getting away from crowds and cities

    Just gets me closer to Sendy

    Understanding her a bit more

    Her heart

    Just makes me love her more

    I need get to understand

    And anchor into three truths with me

    • Trust

    *Snatched engage redirect disengage

    Roma excitement nibble to chew toy

    Play a little to disperse energy

    Toss to side

    Give her command

    Same spiritually when emotions arise in conversation

    Find which tool to engage before redirecting

    Like calmness, compassion, and/or clarity

    To have a gentle conversation

  • Cities and crowds

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    Looking out over Japan from Apa hotel window

    Echos of why other people like the city

    I can see why this may be enjoyable

    I feel like it is too busy

    I cannot see enough nature around me

    I cannot see enough of God’s creation around me

    God’s the only perfect creator that makes no mistakes

    I can see all of Man’s creation surrounding me

    That fail

    That rusts

    That do not last

    I am surrounded by sinners

    We are all sinners

    They are all stacked on top of each other and living in obstruction to the view of God’s beautiful artistry

    I do not want to be able to describe man’s creation

    More than God’s creation

    All of these buildings are merely idolatry

    Of comfort

  • Required basketball

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    What if at PE in middle school

    Required everyone to play basketball

    But did not enforce any of the rules of basketball

    Chaos

    Some having too much fun

    Others afraid of the chaos

    Others bored

    Ideally everyone would be playing the same game

    And participating

    Queue free bird by blessing offor

    The rules of life

    Always was

    Is

    And will be

    God was always pursuing my heart

    It was always for the ancestors hearts

    When we sinned and learned of shame

    Of hunger

    Thinking we know better about anything

    So we had to relearn everything

    Imagine a world that completely functioned fine on its own without human intervention

    The laws have always been there to teach us how to feel

    To sacrifice a lame free of blemish is painful

    Because sheep were important for life

    And taking when it is young is taking away the lamb’s and your future with it

    The idea is to make you feel remorse

    No lamb is needed if you put that sin on the alter

    And burn that

    And allow that scent to be the offering

    There are rules of the flesh

    They did not need to be written down to be true

    It is how you live a life with spiritual fruit

    You do not need to be in the garden of Eden eating from the spiritual fruit

    It is free to reap

    It is free to sow

    Sin famine
    Spiritual fruit abundance

    Final thought