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  • Two trees day 1

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    Word of God vs current reality

    Space of tension in the between

    Qvh

    Existing in faith

    Be bold to pray in faith

    Faith is being certain in the unknown

    Living in the space of tension

    Aka space of faith

    So used to dropping the other end of the rope

    Everyone has dropped a bit of faith in truth

    Everyone has dropped it for someone else

    Holding firm in two realities

    Stability … Abram GEN 15:6 is stable in faith in God

    Gen 12 to 15 is 14 years

    25 years of stable faith before the promise was fulfilled to have a child

    Abram waited 16 years after Ishmael for Isaac

    Sarai offered Abram the apple of control

    Abram chose to control the situation

    God does not shame or abandon Abram

    Still blesses Ishmael

    Still fulfills God’s original promise for Isaac

    Not perfect endurance

    Not perfection

    Return to trust

    Allow God to restore my dropping of the rope

    God give me strength to endure the tension I tried to get out of

    This is biblical faith

    Control is trying to resolve tension on your own

    Faith is allowing tension to resolve in trusting God

    When waiting feels unbearable

    We give up faith for control

    Without faith, it is impossible to please God

    Help me with my unbelief

  • Realize truth

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    You do not have a revelation about a lie

    You have a revelation about a truth

    You gaslight a lie

    So you do not reveal it

    So you do not notice it

    So you do not bring it to light

    You want to bring light as quick as possible

    But you understand it will be blinding

    So you go as fast as our eyes can handle

  • You never left

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    I think about you

    So often

    After we broke up

    More than just missing you

    More like what it would be like if you were here

    Now

    How much more enjoyable it is

    Not doing anything in particular

    Just being you

    I could not see that about myself

    I hung out with you so much

    I think I got to know you just about as much as I would if we were together

    *snatched reality ripper

    Schizo

    Intense drug trip of paranoia

    Zipper drop in other realities

    Describe the bag

    Jesus returns as Terminator humanoid

    Or as nature

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