Category: spiritual

  • Surrounded panteth

    20251118

    After the commands

    Attention grabbing song lyrics yesterday shuffled worship

    About panting of the water by the deer

    So my soul pants for you Lord

    God worked in surround sound in my new book club with kip

    Page 18 referencing PSA 42:1-2

    Aw Tozer, the pursuit of God

    That Rister n vander ark gifted me before

    Thank you for talking to me Lord

  • Sendy…

    202601230715

    Touch


    20251121

    Blessed by ashnic86 during and after chosen bible study

    Start right now by run51

    20251116

    Discern when to suffer in silence

    How do I reconcile the painful words

    How do I reconcile the accusations

    If I was wrong I repent

    If I was wronged then what

    Then unconditionally love them

    It hurts my spirit so much more than physical body

    To be accused of the wrong character

    Accused of lacking caring

    Of lacking honesty

    Of lacking trustworthiness

    Of lacking good

    Constantly have to prove it

    Constantly have to say it

    Constantly having to be constant

    Until it kills me


    Saw me

    Yet accused me

    Of being someone else


    Taught me self care


    20251115

    Driving to friends giving to work Sendy

    Just worshiping 

    Abba by John Pantera 

    I just want to walk in the cool of the day with simple affections of your heart 

    Lord God! 

    You just want a simple relationship of appreciation 

    I have never met anyone more. Appreciative your creation 

    No one that appreciates the beauty of the present 

    The colors and the Majesty of nature 


    20251111

    Love me like you do


    20251101

    Gummy, inhale, brush, squat, moisturize

    Being gross

    Evacuating nose sebaceous filament

    ** synonym for black head/white head/ not pimple gunk what is

    Circular not scrub

    Domino mind blow… 🔗

    **

    Thought about the cabinet filament collector

    You are a fellow listener

    You were not listened to growing up

    You were accused of lying about the character you believe you had after a traumatic experience

      Just like I was never trusted with doing things, anything, or be on my own, or following directions

    ** snatched sin sign crucify

    Stern direction

    Fear follows

    Pause discern… 🔗

    Alignment of goal

    **

    **snatched 21Q about your day

    Ball on scale for every I do not know

    Split centered ball drop hoppered scale

    **

    You are the best time traveler

    Back to a better time and staying there mentally

    Recognizing everything around her now

    In nature now was good because not in bad memory

    I was good at being stuck here and finding entertainment in the now

    My curiosity pruned each time I asked to time travel

    You are the queen of remembering the past

    I am the king of traveling too far into the future

    You are my anchor

    I am your anchor


    Same same

    Seeking, listener

    Seeking, care-er

    Seeking, security

    Seeking, comforter

    Seeking, healing

    Seeking, consistency

    Seeking,

    , = Jeremiah 29:13 – with all your heart a

    Lift me up blessing offor

    Little bird blessing offor


    Flipbook presentation


    Anchor Stone cotton floss ring


    You are creative

    Because you are so in the present

    Not worrying about other things


    202511102

    Grace for both being a walking contradiction

    I was in my norm

    To not share about me

    Because I am not worthy to be seen or known

    I will not share unless asked to share

    Because no one likes my opinion unless asked for

    Trigger:

    Moisturizing hair feels nice

    Not overly stiff / controlling fingers

    Head can participate

    Reminds me of scratching Dang hair

    Discovering without question

    Imagine if she participated a bit

    Or know that she completely surrendered to trusting me

    Or know that she has control by say any word

    I questioned her body with mine

    I listened for the answer

    She got the ice

    She shared the good news of good moisturizer on the first day

    I ask so many questions

    Because I was not asked many questions

    Maybe I had my feelings on my face

    Maybe they tried to console

    Maybe I did not recognize the consolation

    Maybe they tried to console me the best they could

    Maybe they consoled me the way they wanted to be consoled

    Maybe they did not realize the consolation style was for them and I am….me

    Sendy was perfectly fitting to my sore spot

    She did not like asking me questions

    Her pride said that she can figure everything out

    Without asking me questions

    She did not recognize how good I was hiding from people

    I did not recognize how bad I was at hiding from people

    She wanted to be seen and known

    Without being questioned

    She wanted to be invited into conversations

    Without being forced into the conversation

    Without direct questions

    I wanted direct permission

    So I do not feel embarrassed

    For misinterpreting

    If someone else is talking

    I cannot be wrong

    I could have shared more

    Without prompting

    Without fear of shame or anger

    Especially when I felt misunderstood/represented

    I did not know how to love

    I did not know how to recognize love

    I asked questions when I was curious

    But my spirit of curiosity was cut short, down, smothered, snuffed, disarmed, asphyxiated

    I did not know you can seek answers on your own

    So I die

    I shutdown

    You learned to seek on your own

    You learned to reduce your own answers with asking questions

    Two spectrum opposite approaches to the same evil spirit of abandonment

    The answer is somewhere between us

    If we meet in the middle

    We find joy

    The middle is the Truth

  • Sabbath…

    Completed my first Sabbath

    It was an amazing experience..

    I failed some discernment..

    I successfully discerned…🔗


    20250913

    My case for traditional Sabbath observance

    • Commandment 4: keep Sabbath Holy [Exodus 20:8-11 & Deuteronomy 5:12-15 & Leviticus 23:3 & Exodus 31:12-17, Ezekiel 20:20]
    • Jesus says he did not come to abolish any laws [Matthew 5:17]
      • Jesus has paid for all of your speeding tickets
        • Does that mean you are allowed to continue speeding?
        • Do not continue to sin to test God’s Grace [Romans 6:1-2 & Romans 6:15]
          • Sin and death has lost its sting and power because Jesus paid for it and defeated it by resurrecting. But is there still sin now? It still exists and we must still labor/battle daily to not return to being a slave to it. We are now children of God that must still pick up our cross/mat/sin and deny ourselves, daily
      • But the Lord says, “I would no more reject my people than I would change my laws that govern day and night, heaven and earth  [Jeremiah 33:25] (mixed NLT & KJV)
        • The Lord will not reject us (His mercy & grace > our sins), but He does not change any of His laws. He is pleased to have them obeyed
    • “The Lord’s Day” is not a biblical commandment. It was a recognized day of gratitude and amazement of God’s power. Just as all of the other miracles before it (parting seas, resurrecting other dead bodies, etc.)
      • I imagine God face palming that we needed to worship a golden calf because His commanded laws were not enough. I guess if we have such difficulty not worshipping an inanimate object…it minus well be of Him.
    • Jesus calls us to FOLLOW him not Worship Him
      • There is no scripture that commands us to worship Him with the human recognized “Lord’s Day”, especially not as explicitly as to keep it Holy as Sabbath. He did not deny the worship as people recognized his divinity, but He did not command it
      • Multiple scripture of Jesus stating to follow Him/imitate Him/ walk like Him [14 instances according to chatGPT, some: Matthew 4:19, 8:22, mark 8:34, John 8:12]
      • Jesus always gave glory to God the Father. God the Father rested on the 7th day. He commanded that day the kept Holy
      • Jesus’ purpose and mission was even put on PAUSE for Sabbath!
        • He died on the day of Sabbath preparation [Mark 15:42]
        • RESTED in the grave on Sabbath [Luke 23:56] as to still keep the day holy
        • No one witnessed when He rose. He may well have continued His mission/purpose/work on Earth after Sabbath was over Saturday night. Nuance that does not take away from the miracle that we discovered his resurrection the morning after… WE coined the day WE discovered His resurrection as the Lord’s Day and decided to make it a special day of worship
    • Hebrews 4:9-10 NLT
      [9] So there is a special rest still waiting for the people of God. [10] For all who have entered into God’s rest have rested from their labors, just as God did after creating the world.
      • My interpretation: “still waiting” does not refer to current time/rest/worldly life. It refers to our eternal rest in heaven with God After all of our labor of worldly life
    • How to observe?
      • Follow Scripture
        • No trading [Nehemiah 13:15-22]
        • Rest as though you were released from slavery/imprisonment [Deuteronomy 5:15]
      • Follow spirit of discernment… 🔗
        • Delight in God [Isaiah 58:13-14]
        • Do what is restful and honors God [Mark 2:27-28]
        • Do not let others judge how you observe. You honor your God with all your heart [Romans 14:5-6]
    • Will you fall short? Yes. As we do
      • God’s grace & mercy > our sin… We are not saved by the law. The observance of Sabbath as holy is our gifted glimpse of the rest we receive in Christ Jesus, but in comparison, is only a shadow [Colossians 2:16-17]
    • How serious is it to observe?
      • Lord commanded stoned to death for gathering sticks [numbers 15:32-36]
        • Maybe physical before
        • Now importantly spiritually now

    20250914

    Would not the Lord’s Day be a single day of resurrection? The purpose of celebrating Christmas for His birth, the purpose of celebrating Easter.


    20250915

    Continuation of the Sabbath case

    • God’s mention of the displeasure in desecrating Sabbath
      • Ezekiel 20:13, 20:15-16, 20:21, 20:24, 22:8, 22:26, 23:38

    20250927

    Bible app daily devotional: Sabbath rest

    Revelations 14:13


    20251001

    Bible app daily bread plan of Bible in a year

    Ezekiel 44:24 NIV
    
    [24] “ ‘In any dispute, the priests are to serve as judges and decide it according to my ordinances. They are to keep my laws and my decrees for all my appointed festivals, and they are to keep my Sabbaths holy.
    Ezekiel 45:17 NIV
    [17] It will be the duty of the prince to provide the burnt offerings, grain offerings and drink offerings at the festivals, the New Moons and the Sabbaths—at all the appointed festivals of Israel. He will provide the sin offerings, grain offerings, burnt offerings and fellowship offerings to make atonement for the Israelites.

    This prophecy from Ezekiel has not been realized yet and Sabbath is still mentioned

    Ezekiel 46:1&3-4, 12

    Are these prophecies somewhere in the future in heaven?

    Were God’s laws applicable only in the old testament days and in the heavenly future, but not in between?


    20251010

    After serving with the believe center organization

    Excited to learn more about Sabbath

    ChatGPT created a narrative after I asked how Adam and Eve would have spent Sabbath:

    Beautiful — let’s imagine that first Sabbath together, told as a gentle narrative inspired by Genesis.
    This isn’t scripture, but a reverent reconstruction meant to capture its spirit.




    🌅 The First Sabbath: A Day in Eden

    Evening — The Sixth Day Fades

    The sun dipped low behind the Garden’s golden trees.
    Adam and Eve, newly formed from the Creator’s hands, watched their first sunset.
    The world was quieting — animals slowed, rivers glowed, and light turned soft and golden.

    God’s voice, deep and kind, echoed among the leaves:

    > “The work is finished. Now comes rest.”



    As the stars appeared, the first Sabbath began.




    Morning — The Dawn of Rest

    When light touched the garden again, no command of labor came.
    There was no sowing, no tending, no naming — only being.

    They awoke to the whisper of the breeze through fig leaves,
    and a sense of peace too deep to measure.

    God met them in the garden, walking in light brighter than the sun.
    He spoke with them about all He had made —
    the strength of the lion, the gentleness of the deer, the wisdom woven into seed and soil.

    They listened and learned that all things were “very good,”
    and that they, made in His image, were part of that good.




    Midday — Fellowship and Wonder

    They ate from the trees of life and sweetness,
    sharing fruit and laughter, the music of birds above.
    Every color, every sound seemed alive with praise.

    Together they explored — not to work, but to wonder.
    They marveled at how each creature found its mate,
    how vines climbed toward light,
    how streams mirrored the heavens.

    Their joy was worship. Their curiosity was prayer.




    Afternoon — Rest in the Presence

    As shadows stretched long, they rested beneath a tree heavy with blossoms.
    God’s presence felt close — not seen, but known,
    like warmth wrapping every leaf and heartbeat.

    No temple stood in Eden, for the whole world was holy.
    The Garden itself was a sanctuary, and the Sabbath its first song.

    Adam turned to Eve, amazed:

    > “We were created yesterday, and today we rest.
    All begins with peace before work begins.”






    Evening — The Light of Blessing

    When the stars returned, their Maker blessed them again.

    > “This day is set apart,” He said,
    “a sign between us forever —
    that life begins not in toil, but in communion.”



    They fell asleep to the rhythm of the garden —
    crickets singing, rivers glimmering, hearts full.

    And the world, still untouched by sorrow, rested in harmony with its Creator.




    Would you like me to continue this as a short poetic story — like “The First Sabbath in Eden” — that reads more like a sacred tale you could share or print?