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  • Anxious stone

    20250928

    Throbbing ankle from backpacking, volleyball, then middle school paint socking was overplayed

    Fiber Sea salt water, started laundry, iced and wrapped and elevated ankle

    Then gummy

    Reminiscing about the Middle School event admission church last night

    I remember mentioning to Eddie:

    That disobedient child refusing to follow the rules of a single successful attempt of achieving the goal to hit the dunking target is why I struggle (aka... have anxiety) over the spirit of anxiousness being present when I am alone with the situation of being surrounded by the children of the enemy

    *Snatched*
    A beautiful mind movie
    Inside out movie
    *

    Carry a stone each time you feel anxious

    Realize what it is

    Remember each time it happens

    Remember can give that over to God

    God will tell you what you need to do next

    That child needed more discipline

    That child needed more attention to understand why he was being disobedient

    Why did that make me feel uncomfortable?

    I do not know how to discipline without physical punishment

  • Angry at physics

    20250926

    After getting my participation trophy

    Being angry at the way things are

    Like mean people

    Or bad people

    Or stubbing your toe

    Or missing the bus

    Or being late

    Is as good as being angry at the rain

    Or gravity

    You can spend your life defying it

    Fighting it

    Controlling it

    Sheltering from it

    Or learn of it

    Flow with it

    Be of it

  • Participate

    20251114

    After dancing into me

    I continued my chosen bible study

    Page 75 stated:

    While the zealots were warring, Simon z was watching because Jesus was setting his kinsmen free in a way he could never have imagined. Yes, the lame were made to walk…

    *Godsmack

    The man at the pool (Simon’s brother, Jesse) was making excuses

    Why he was sitting in his sin

    Why he was not trying to be healed

    Why he was trying to do something he did not believe would work

    But once he was able to SEE Jesus

    He turns from his sins

    He walked (participated) in his Salvation

    Through the power and encouragement of Jesus

    Praise the Lord

    Just as I am writing this praise

    Song plays

    Just take it to the Lord 
    By Spencer Boliou, lofi hymns on What a friend we have in Jesus.

    20250926

    Mindmushed by beatitude

    It still spilled into another thought train

    To attempt to discern who/what/when/how is my neighbor