Talking with Sarah
Processing Jack passing
The pain of losing someone you love
Is excruciating
I have to move on without him
Remembering him in each item that she has to reconsolidate
*Godwink stay with me by Sam Smith*
God is that you talking to me to stay with you
Or me to sendy
Or sendy to me
After filling out my profile
Recognize joy is not known without pain
Not the pain of me constantly hurting you
The pain that you remembered your past
The past will always be with you
But you can let go of the weights those memories carry
Like paint on a masterpiece
You cannot save all of the leftover paint
There is a working time for it
Then it dries up
And cannot perform its purpose
So it is discarded
Be grateful for its provision
And the beautiful marks
It left behind
After being delighted
I want to do everything
So I end up doing nothing
All of it would be fun
Let us just do something
All of it can be fun
Just looking for someone to have fun with
Whatever you want
Painting
Rocks
Nature
Meh I do not care for news
Or what someone else that does not influence my perceived life is doing
Or fads
Or clothes
Or perception from others
Especially if they have unreasonable costs associated
There are too many free fun things
That paying just does not make sense
I just want to have my own fun
I am seeking God’s purpose for me
I am being guided by the Holy Spirit of Jesus Christ
I am seeking marriage
I am seeking children to raise
I am seeking fruits of the spirit