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  • Wild at heart

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    By John Eldredge

    Spoke to me and aligned with my history

    Sent BflyMary

    Just had a Godwink… 🔗 moment: Wild at Heart book is exactly what I need. I stopped at the part that I understood I was missing a lot of what a boy needed growing up with women and not tested much. Developed “why try” mentality. Weakened me so much thru out life, but now thru Christ everything has changed for me.

    Closed the notebook and book. Looked at the verse of the day… Romans 5:3-4 Rejoice for problems and trials to build character for salvation….. God so Good

  • History aligns

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    0440-0515 tired anxiety in bed

    Zen sniffs me to get up

    The name is going to fit her well one day

    Brush squat dress for the day inhale

    Read wild at heart by John Eldredge for book study with DatMike

    Pg 10 took me for a tangent

    After talking about a boy’s nature is to desire battle, an adventure to live, and a beauty to love

    All resonate with what was not modeled, encouraged, and in some instances, quelled

    Into a self denying, passive, flowy personality

    *snatched to consistency

    I heard a gear shift in my head and the image of a white silly cloth unwinding clockwise to be closer to being made creaseless and clean

    Revelation graced… 🔗

    What I did not receive from my uprising as a boy to be aman

    I did receive an important notion

    My most emotional moment of leaving the Tran family

    May not have been (to me) appropriately comforted

    Ultimately I was comforted when I was brought back to them

    Consistency is key

    I was not the happiest I could have been

    But I was the happiest I had experienced

    **snatched could should

    Excommunicate could and should from lexicon

    They are words of worry and anxiety

    ***

    Sendy had the complementary experience

    Complimentary

    Final thought

  • Two trees day 1

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    Word of God vs current reality

    Space of tension in the between

    Qvh

    Existing in faith

    Be bold to pray in faith

    Faith is being certain in the unknown

    Living in the space of tension

    Aka space of faith

    So used to dropping the other end of the rope

    Everyone has dropped a bit of faith in truth

    Everyone has dropped it for someone else

    Holding firm in two realities

    Stability … Abram GEN 15:6 is stable in faith in God

    Gen 12 to 15 is 14 years

    25 years of stable faith before the promise was fulfilled to have a child

    Abram waited 16 years after Ishmael for Isaac

    Sarai offered Abram the apple of control

    Abram chose to control the situation

    God does not shame or abandon Abram

    Still blesses Ishmael

    Still fulfills God’s original promise for Isaac

    Not perfect endurance

    Not perfection

    Return to trust

    Allow God to restore my dropping of the rope

    God give me strength to endure the tension I tried to get out of

    This is biblical faith

    Control is trying to resolve tension on your own

    Faith is allowing tension to resolve in trusting God

    When waiting feels unbearable

    We give up faith for control

    Without faith, it is impossible to please God

    Help me with my unbelief