LamMoving

Tag: HolyNudge

  • Define desire

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    Exploring my joys

    Means also exploring my desires

    I have been enjoying slow morning

    Not being in a rush

    My desire is to not be rushed

    My desire is to peacefully

    Calmly

    Do what I need to do

    Then

    Do

    My desire is to lose myself

    To the worship music

    To dance

    To sing

    My desire to rest

    In the Lord

    And feel no pain

    And be present in my body

    In my current surroundings

    Safely

    Comfortably

    I have been nomadic

    So long

    Sojourning

    My greatest rest I have found

    Is to let go of my anxieties

    Not sleep many hours

    To awaken groggy

    And still tired

    When I can move

    Freely

    Free from pain

    Physically

    Mentally

    Spiritually

    What is left is the soul of gratitude

    I will constantly come here

    To rest

    Daily

    As much as I can

    What do I desire to do before coming back?

    Making the space more comfortable to worship in

    To get there more efficiently

    To have more time there

    To be at my best

    To not waste my time being tired there

    I will try to be awake

    Even if I do not feel awake

    To squeeze the fruit

    From different perspectives

    Different angles

    Different layers

    Different realities

    Different music

    Different devotional

    What else do I desire?

    Physical is easy

    Mental is easy

    What does my soul desire?

  • Not the same

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    Wake inhale gummy brush hair teeth eyes coffee latte moisturize worship dance

    My attention was snatched by background lyrics

    I've got to tell my story (I'm not the same, I'm not the same, I'm not the same)
    -Hero (live) by Amen music, Aaron Moses

    That was the trigger for Sendy that night

    She is not the same

    She is rebranding

    When I said I knew her

    She heard she was the same still

    From when we were together

    But she has grown so much

    Since then

    Just as I have

    We are a better version

    Of ourselves

    We are spiritually connected still

    Going thru growth together

    Even when we were not together

    Around the same pace

    And are both feeling upward in spirit

    New growth

    Does not change the trunk of the vine

    You are the same at the core

    Beautiful

    And now you are blooming

    Fragrantly

    A different state of being

    But still the same soul

    I love

    Steadfast soul

    Final initial thought

  • Rebuttal

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    Inhaled a deep holding breath of prayer

    That the Lord help guide me

    In this little session

    Of nourishment physically (mmm steak)

    Of nourishment spiritually

    Just going about life

    Learning about myself

    Learning I can discover what I like

    Like how to cut a steak

    To make the texture more enjoyable

    Neither are wrong

    One is just more enjoyable

    Subjective

    I do not need validation from others

    To know I enjoy it

    For myself

    Sendy argument: 

    You are going to get bored and leave me again

    Rebuttal:

    I do not get bored

    I get creative

    I was forced at a young age

    To learn how to entertain myself

    My worth tethered me to others

    That were not interested

    In my interests

    I learned how to turn on the screen saver

    I learned how to imagine simulations

    I learned to not share them since I was not asked

    *snatched heaven

    Like rain on a tin roof

    By blessing of for blessed by ashnic86

    *Godwinked I spilled my coarse salt

    That I just bought from WinCo

    As I sang in worship

    I brushed the unsalvageable pieces into the trash

    And it sounded like rain on a tin roof

    As it landed on the paper in the trash can