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Blessed by ashnic86 during and after chosen bible study
Start right now by run51
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Discern when to suffer in silence
How do I reconcile the painful words
How do I reconcile the accusations
If I was wrong I repent
If I was wronged then what
Then unconditionally love them
It hurts my spirit so much more than physical body
To be accused of the wrong character
Accused of lacking caring
Of lacking honesty
Of lacking trustworthiness
Of lacking good
Constantly have to prove it
Constantly have to say it
Constantly having to be constant
Until it kills me
Saw me
Yet accused me
Of being someone else
Taught me self care
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Driving to friends giving to work Sendy
Just worshiping
Abba by John Pantera
I just want to walk in the cool of the day with simple affections of your heart
Lord God!
You just want a simple relationship of appreciation
I have never met anyone more. Appreciative your creation
No one that appreciates the beauty of the present
The colors and the Majesty of nature
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Gummy, inhale, brush, squat, moisturize
Being gross
Evacuating nose sebaceous filament
** synonym for black head/white head/ not pimple gunk what is
Circular not scrub
Domino mind blow… 🔗
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Thought about the cabinet filament collector
You are a fellow listener
You were not listened to growing up
You were accused of lying about the character you believe you had after a traumatic experience
Just like I was never trusted with doing things, anything, or be on my own, or following directions
** snatched sin sign crucify
Stern direction
Fear follows
Pause discern… 🔗
Alignment of goal
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**snatched 21Q about your day
Ball on scale for every I do not know
Split centered ball drop hoppered scale
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You are the best time traveler
Back to a better time and staying there mentally
Recognizing everything around her now
In nature now was good because not in bad memory
I was good at being stuck here and finding entertainment in the now
My curiosity pruned each time I asked to time travel
You are the queen of remembering the past
I am the king of traveling too far into the future
You are my anchor
I am your anchor
Same same
Seeking, listener
Seeking, care-er
Seeking, security
Seeking, comforter
Seeking, healing
Seeking, consistency
Seeking,
, = Jeremiah 29:13 – with all your heart a
Lift me up blessing offor
Little bird blessing offor
Flipbook presentation
Anchor Stone cotton floss ring
You are creative
Because you are so in the present
Not worrying about other things
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Grace for both being a walking contradiction
I was in my norm
To not share about me
Because I am not worthy to be seen or known
I will not share unless asked to share
Because no one likes my opinion unless asked for
Trigger:
Moisturizing hair feels nice
Not overly stiff / controlling fingers
Head can participate
Reminds me of scratching Dang hair
Discovering without question
Imagine if she participated a bit
Or know that she completely surrendered to trusting me
Or know that she has control by say any word
I questioned her body with mine
I listened for the answer
She got the ice
She shared the good news of good moisturizer on the first day
I ask so many questions
Because I was not asked many questions
Maybe I had my feelings on my face
Maybe they tried to console
Maybe I did not recognize the consolation
Maybe they tried to console me the best they could
Maybe they consoled me the way they wanted to be consoled
Maybe they did not realize the consolation style was for them and I am….me
Sendy was perfectly fitting to my sore spot
She did not like asking me questions
Her pride said that she can figure everything out
Without asking me questions
She did not recognize how good I was hiding from people
I did not recognize how bad I was at hiding from people
She wanted to be seen and known
Without being questioned
She wanted to be invited into conversations
Without being forced into the conversation
Without direct questions
I wanted direct permission
So I do not feel embarrassed
For misinterpreting
If someone else is talking
I cannot be wrong
I could have shared more
Without prompting
Without fear of shame or anger
Especially when I felt misunderstood/represented
I did not know how to love
I did not know how to recognize love
I asked questions when I was curious
But my spirit of curiosity was cut short, down, smothered, snuffed, disarmed, asphyxiated
I did not know you can seek answers on your own
So I die
I shutdown
You learned to seek on your own
You learned to reduce your own answers with asking questions
Two spectrum opposite approaches to the same evil spirit of abandonment
The answer is somewhere between us
If we meet in the middle
We find joy
The middle is the Truth
