20251207
Canvas by Trulah
Resonated but did not know lyrics
So I hummed along until I learned it lyrics
Tell the words became familiar enough to sit right behind my lips
Till I was confident enough barely opened my mouth and say a word
Turns out I can sing the whole song without opening my mouth
I can say so much without saying anything
20251207
Woke 0444 two deep breaths brush squat moisturize comb hair dress
Topic from fellowship last night with Mare and Jacqui arrived at the thought station
Where does dairy fall into the Bible filter?
Butter with steak
Train continued on the tracks to:
Why do you not eat pork?
My religion says so
*lost them
Why do you not eat pork?
You know what they eat naturally without humans feeding?
Grass?
Yes! And everything else. Healthy stuff like nuts, roots, fruits, insects, animals…but everything also includes….Carrion…dead stuff and poop
They also have an amazing immune system because of it. Meaning in the same room with them, they have a much better chance of surviving a virus living in the taco you both ate. Meaning you cannot trust eating them without running the risk of eating some of that virus that is still in them.
I learned that from the spirit of Bible law
Do you trust science will pump the pigs with vaccines enough to kill all the viruses they may or may not know will be harmful to us? Does that work for the flu for humans now?
How do you think the supposed virus would get throughout the body?
Blood
Hence also why it is recommended to cook out the blood of any meats
Do you think most pig farms keep a watchful eye on their entire flock to stop them from eating what they naturally want in the wild? Were your parents always successful in stopping you from getting something you wanted when you were a child?
You can diver deeper. Get the exact numbers and probability. Put more controls in place to limit what they eat. Study them more to know what viruses we can attempt to defend against in a vaccine to them or a vaccine to us.
Or you can just follow the Bible recommendations filter
There is plenty enough allowed
Is there a chance that whatever you eat…
You eat a bit of its spirit?
That pig feeds on the dead
Maybe even a little bit of that dead spirit
Lady in Red, why do you look for the living
-Lyric from Dark Balthazar echos in my head from song titled “Self Righteous”
You feed on that pig
I pray you do believe that you will consume even a mustard seed size bit of their spirit
Because Jesus offers us His daily bread and living water
And He can heal anything
When you surrender it to Him
By miracle
Or by trial
20251208
Telehealth with Dr. Cusick
Slight risk of high cholesterol
Recommend to reduce fast food and pork
I do not eat pork anymore
From scientific standpoint they are an unhealthier choice
20251206
Committed to waking up early for a deep breath of prayer at 4:20
Starting playing a game
*snatched fall up rules
I read
I do
You read
you do
I grab trust instruction cards… 🔗
I make visible “no judgement” card
You choose one trusted slow song
I play on repeat
*
With God
Real exercise of imagination
Asking how to fall up
Walking back and forth on 9 tiles
Refocus on *no judgement* card
Half open relaxed eyes
**snatched relaxed eyes
Relax your eyes
**snatched defining activate
Flex bicep 💪🏽
Relax Open arm flat
Flex bicep half way
Relax Open arm flat
Imagine an immoveable dumbbell
Replace activate for flex
Replace deactivate for relax
**
Deactivate eyes 20% more
Relax
Recognize that it requires more energy to open them
Than keeping them as they are in this moment
**
Feel activated shoulders
Weighed down
Refocus “no judgement” card
Shift around
Familiarize with new weight
Feel it getting heavier
Really sink down
Slowing down your pace
So heavy
Labored breathing
Push your stomach earthward
So heavy
Breath deep
Stand still
**snatched hypnosis caution
Pull your heart earthward
So heavy
remember to protect it
**
By first going down
There exists reference of up
Put your thumb up 👍🏽
You read
I Flip through all trust instruction… 🔗 cards
***snatched trust instruction
Safe to trust – This silly little exercise
No shame – In this Game
No embarrassment – no wrong way
No judgement – invitation
****snatched card instructions
Of trusting instructions
****
Hence forth
I As Trust card holder
I Seal lips
*hand over instructions
You hum only
Validation
Or disapproval
Unless
I give consent
To help read instructions
***
Grab belly button
*Refocus on “No judgement” card
Open hand grab
Or close fist
Pull it skyward
So much
legs straighten
*Refocus on “No judgement” card
Move
Go up more
Lift your heels
Higher
Slowly let down
Heels only
Pull forward one tile
Pull backward two tiles
Pull forward zero tiles
Pull back
Repeat on beat
Pace forward backward
*Refocus on “No judgement” card
retracing step
Or circle
Thumb up 👍🏽
Grab your heart
Lift skyward
Lift left skyward
Lift spine right skyward
On beat
Lift straight up
*Refocus “No judgement” card
continue stepping
Or heels planted
Thumb up 👍🏽
Grab chin
Hum
Push chin forward
Hum
Pull chin back
*Refocus random trust card
Play hum chin trumpet 🎺
On beat
*Refocus random trust card
Ballet finger gently on top of head
*snatched ballet puppet
Pull head skyward
Imagine gravity reversed
Skyward
Stumble skyward
Fall up