Tag: nourishment

  • Seeking novelty

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    0400 procrastinated

    Even without tiredness

    Tapped at 0500

    Sad I missed another hour to worship

    Candle inhale reset bed Zen bed dress potty hair brush squat coffee soy latte dish counter reset worship dance

    *snatched to revelation use all of earth

    For ground

    To pull toward

    Fastest path

    Is the most efficient longest path

    Punch load up arrow backward

    To release point forward

    Punch fist travels in curved trajectory

    Curves are dangerous

    Nike check to jump vs broad jump

    Hook punch vs straight punch

    Power is found farthest back

    To go the farthest forward

    *

    Reminiscing of last night

    Excited for so many projects

    I have wanted to do

    For so long

    Yet did not do

    Under the burden

    Of worthlessness

    Now I am worth it

    I am new

    Am I just seeking novelty?

    Maybe

    But it is all just for fun

    I will see God along the way

    He will tell me if I am going the wrong way

    I can gain expertise in all of it

    Or just one of it

    God will be there for all of it

    Something will always be new

    I do not need to be good at any of it

    None of it matters

    Just do it to have fun

    Do it earnestly

    God will accept any offering

    That is earnest

    *snatched sacrifice advice

    To accept advice is a sacrifice

    Of accepting you were wrong

    And going the other way

    Must be humbled

    To go someone else’s way

    To follow them

    In the direction they are leading you

    Tension

    Of losing self

    To follow someone else

    Must feel safe

    That the one leading

    Is Good

    Good God
    omnipresent in activities

    Final initial thought
  • Buzz chaser

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    0501 wake candle inhale brush uncandle (no kindling fire on Sabbath) coffee peanut butter

    Leisurely explore

    Volleyball quilt

    Volleyball

    Double gummy

    Inhale

    Missing the station

    Went too far

    Nap

    Wake

    Munch monster

    Nothing requiring kindling fire

    Wandering into tomorrow

    Chicken prep

    Conversation with ChatGPT

    Broke down origin story of 1g protein / body pound

    As optimization and body building culture

    Centurions ingest less than 50% of that

    Silly

    I do not want to build up my body that much

    The three day meal prep

    Just became three days for two people

    Or a week long for myself

    I am no longer chasing the buzz

    Of fullness

    I am chasing the buzz

    Of not feeling hungry

    Just feeling at peace

    No chasing a feeling of drunkardness

    Of uselessness

    Of being full

    And hindering alertness

    Thrill of the chase
    Of peace

    Final initial thought
  • Worthy

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    0435 wake candle gummy inhale potty dress hair brush squat peanut butter coffee latte dance

    Fellowship with Jacqui

    Touched on qualification

    To do God’s Will

    *Snatched See spirit of soul

    Wade into mess

    of relationship (fellowship, spouse,…)

    You do not connect with a sad soul

    Like you connect with a fearful soul

    Like you connect with an angry soul

    Like you connect with a joyous soul

    Draw toward as comfortor

    Draw back from flames before calmly taming

    Draw up to uplift as you rejoice together

    *

    How dare I (connecting with the prideful soul)

    Question God’s choice

    On choosing the correct person

    To do His Will

    Do you think He does not know

    Who He created?

    Pause who is who?

    People you are trying to help

    People that are helping you

    People that are not helping you

    Unpause

    What he created?

    The situation

    The issue

    The solution

    Then

    Who are you?

    To question His desire

    God’s Decision

    Jesus’ Choice

    To pick

    To think

    To want

    To use you

    Do not question

    Why He chose you

    Question

    Why you are NOT

    choosing Him


    Title anchors me

    My writing digressions

    Loses where I came from

    Realizing you are worthy

    Because God chose you

    Careful not to get arrogant

    For your father choosing you

    As His favorite

    Realizing He has chosen many others

    But they have a different purpose

    Than the perfect purpose

    He has for you

    *snatched accordion time

    Spiritual attack: rushing to get things done this morning

    Negotiating

    interfering with morning routine

    To be efficient

    With my day

    No

    Do the morning routine

    No distractions

    Speed it up

    Do it faster

    Squish the time it takes

    On your life timeline

    Unless it is more important

    That the reason

    For the morning routine

    Keep to the routine

    Know your priority

    Civic duty to be at jury duty on time

    Morning routine

    New tasks

    Based off experience

    You know how much you can speed up

    Your routine

    To have space for new thing

    Yet be interruptible

    And know priority

    *snatched undercover Jesus

    **snatched playing accordion chess

    God allowed Jesus to live

    As any human would

    When He called Jesus to perform

    Knowing Jesus can draw out His time on earth

    If he healed in secret

    But with every miracle He performed

    He knew it drew Him nearer

    To His purpose

    He would have to leave

    Though He wants to stay

    And heal in secret

    He knows the Greater Good

    Of God’s Will

    Be fulfilled

    If He did large miracles early

    He would have still fulfilled His purpose

    Early

    And squished His time

    On earth

    He drew it out

    As long as He could

    To show mercy

    As long as He could

    **

    *

    Run from your purpose

    In fear

    Stretches your timeline

    Fear

    Step into your purpose

    Stretch the joy

    On your timeline

    It will feel tiny

    I am worthy

    Final initial thought