Tag: tremble

  • Make Him Proud

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    The truth is by Megan Woods by ashnic86

    Seeds of doubt

    This is Sendy and I

    We do not feel Good enough

    But I would not change a thing

    About you

    You grow all on your own

    I just want to hold you

    Support

    However you need me to

    To move toward joy

    To move toward peace

    To move toward love

    To move toward God

    Same same

    Final initial thought

    Godwink to dispel seeds of doubts

    Jesus rebuked Peter

    The rock

    Trust only in the Lord

    I random digital flip Bible

    With prayer to speak to me

    Judges 13:23 strummed a heart cord

    If my morning routine were wrong

    God would not accept the burnt offerings of what my past offers for His kingdom

    For Him to use for His Will

    If I am eating spiritual fruit

    I am following the Good Omens

    It is my favorite time

    With the Lord

    When I can use whatever voice I want

    To worship Him

    But I am looking for the one

    That will allow me to worship as long as possible

    So the one that can go the full range of notes

    With the lowest effort

    To reduce fatigue

    God would not have accepted the grain offering

    The seeds of my future

    The imaginary possibilities of infinity

    Any of which God can make a reality

    If He is willing

    He would reveal

    My heart’s desire

    He would choose to fulfill

    Or mercifully rescue me from

    *snatched take punches

    To my character

    With judgement

    Unsolicited advice

    Yet no answer

    To my questions

    ** snatched so dumb

    How people do not understand

    What is righteous

    I am so dumb

    How am I to think I know everything

    I know nothing

    But what I do know

    Everyone else should automatically know

    Because I am dumb

    And I know it

    Does not have to make sense

    To be true

    **

    Attacks on my character

    Has been constant in my life

    Doubting my ability

    To understand banking

    To understand how to make decisions

    To understand my own desires

    To understand my own preference for joy

    Such as eating salty food

    Or eating sweet things

    People did not want to teach me

    They said I would figure it out

    Meant to be a compliment

    But it fed into my worthlessness

    To be worth someone’s time/energy

    To be spent on

  • No Lord over me

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    Reading wild at heart by John eldredge chapter 10

    I rather you do nothing for me

    Than do something

    To Lord over me

    Do not guilt me

    I rather figure it out myself

    Than be enslaved from spite

    So I do not ask

    I do not receive

    In fear of either

    What does it look like for someone

    To do something

    Not out of obligation

    With no expectation of reciprocation

    Out of love

    Only one Lord
    Who is humble

    Final initial thought

    Sendy did not do this to me

    She showed love in this way

  • Not the same

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    Wake inhale gummy brush hair teeth eyes coffee latte moisturize worship dance

    My attention was snatched by background lyrics

    I've got to tell my story (I'm not the same, I'm not the same, I'm not the same)
    -Hero (live) by Amen music, Aaron Moses

    That was the trigger for Sendy that night

    She is not the same

    She is rebranding

    When I said I knew her

    She heard she was the same still

    From when we were together

    But she has grown so much

    Since then

    Just as I have

    We are a better version

    Of ourselves

    We are spiritually connected still

    Going thru growth together

    Even when we were not together

    Around the same pace

    And are both feeling upward in spirit

    New growth

    Does not change the trunk of the vine

    You are the same at the core

    Beautiful

    And now you are blooming

    Fragrantly

    A different state of being

    But still the same soul

    I love

    Steadfast soul

    Final initial thought