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This morning’s session reflection regarding bflymary statement of me being “in my body a lot”
I wondered why and i am feel weirdly like my worthless thing is either a crutch or just have some crazy roots that it touches so many parts of my life. I surmise that intentional heavy pruning (aka killing) emotions and external physical reactions means i did not feel internally nor externally in the form of physical sensations. So then i just observe others and stay confused as to why they continue to do things that result in pain.
When i learned there is normally something i can do to reduce pain, i was confused as to why people did not just do that. Why do people not want to be healed?

Second layer to the that. Fruit of the spirit. Because they have barriers to seeking the fruit. The barriers are the 7 deadly sins. I see mostly sloth. Too tired to seek the fruit.