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Hyperfocus
Worthless anxiety
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Power trip
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Praying to God while I am driving to volleyball. Play with Benson, David, Jacob
I just helped to babysit for Mary yesterday while she was in class and her parents were not home
Thatcher, fionly, Stella all so sweet and desire attention and interaction
Thatcher got upset because he was making the rules of the game
Then when Finn wanted to play her game of something McFlower
Thatcher got real upset and did not want to play
When talking to him after he stormed off
He revealed that he does not like playing the game because eventually at some point in the game, Finn becomes demanding of everyone to help her collect her pedals and bosses everyone around like a slave
It is an opportunity for her to have power
It is a power dynamic
He does not want to play
He is dysregulated because he wants to be included
If she does not follow the rules that he has created for his game
He is able to overpower her and make her submit
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Motivation spirit
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Woke at 4 and needed to potty
Anxious about training Zen
Waited until 5 so we can both potty same time
Decided not to cuz cold and tired
Layer back down
Prayed for strength
Since it was the Lord’s hour
The first and best of my day
Was I malnourished?
No
I ate plenty all day yesterday
Was I mentally exhausted?
No
I knew what I could be doing
No simulations necessary
Was I spiritually depleted?
I just had Sabbath Saturday and the Lord’s Day at church
Twice to volunteer
It is spiritual battle
My purpose is under siege
Just move
Train potty to reduce marking
Morning routine
Recognize the warfare
Final thought