I was not in the picture much
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Watch bloom
Losing burst control
Grab hold of Jesus
Imagine planting
Your own seed thoughts
And watering it
And being patient with it
Not rushing it
Allowing it room to grow
Only pruning if it got out of control
Snatched victory pose
Revelation only revealed with trust
In faith
Hold strong to the Lord
It really will save you
Jesus will save you
Each time
You dove back in
To try and save another
But you can’t do it
Without me
So keep going
As long as you stay close
To me
Enough to touch
Enough to turn around once
And notice if I am there
I will always answer
Jesus is King
Final initial thoughtSendy is not stronger
Than Jesus
He saves lives
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Real control
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Control potty speed
Change from a light switch
To a dimmer switch
Real control is doing that
With your emotions
To be able to control the switch
It needs to all be off
To know what it feels like
Like feeling around in the dark for a light switch
feel around
You can find it by choice
Or it can be found for you by someone else
My emergency kill switch
Was found early
My mom and dad showed me how to find it
With guilt
Then anger
Then abandonment
Guilt to stay
Anger to go
Waking up alone
Seeking safety in dad
He left
Seeking it in mom
She left at night
I woke up crying alone
For a long time
Until mom woke up from the closet
At least she is here
She just does not want to be around me
I guess love is not to be close
Just love from a far
By just being there
Is love
She provides the food
So just trust her
Tame the lion
Of love
Of anger
Comfort the child
Of sadness
Of pain
Look around
Find compassion
Find forgiveness
Find freedom
Godwink of counterintuitive
Control
And power
Good is Good
Final initial thought
aLl the tkmeEverything you know
Is true
Just incomplete
Control/power/memory
Purple rock
I cannot convince you of anything
If I could
You would be convinced to be with me by now
You do not listen to me
About me
You could not
I would not talk about me
My heart thought it was not worth it
I just mirrored you
So you were just talking to yourself
You hardly noticed I was there when you were sleeping
How do you not sleep
Remember what it is
To be so sad
In dispair
For eternity
Through the night
Until you
Just die
Of exhaustion
Waking up in the morning
Confirmed my reality
Of being alone
There was no joy
in the morning
Only harsh lonley reality
Whoever is in control
Of all that
Is powerful
Is You
You are Good
Soul cry
Final initial thought