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Sabbath in my hammock
In my ambulance
Quite nice and relaxing in here
I want a beaded screen to keep out bugs
Like this gnat
Maybe I will kill it
Or capture it to release
Both seem like a lot of work
Why is it even here
Looks like it just keeps circling
Like caught in windy eddy
Maybe if I just blow toward the exit 🌬️
It will jump on the new path
😱 it worked!
God you so funny
Think about it
Final thought
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During prayer40
I was seeking joy for Zen
As I prayed
The Helper brought to mind
What I considered as joy
For myself
*snatched pride of knowing better
I did not need to love myself
Before loving others
I hated myself
I can just learn What Love is
And do that for other people
I can deny all those things if reciprocated
Because I would do those for myself
If I loved myself
I did not know how to FEEL love
How to make it heart knowledge
I only knew what I learned
Through observation or question
Not through experience
**snatched watch somemonkey gift candy to someone they love
Lamb does the same
Rejects any in return
Or self to self
** unsnatch
Others worth to give what I have seen others give others
Or give them what I observe them to like
*unsnatch
Worth giving joy to now
Worth seeking
Worth experiencing
Source of my annoyance to Zen
Source of the annoyance toward me
Treat others
Final thought
As you want to be treated
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Prayer 40 thought
Perspective from Sendy
You are 5 years old but now have the salary of a 36 year old
Lucky me
It is like I time traveled
Lucky me
I met someone that similarly traveled
How many are willing to travel
And find their younger self
Stuck in the past
Traumatized
And give them the present
Of presence
Everyone has trauma
Final thought
Jesus breaks chains
To be free