My delight

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0321 Zen wake nightmare potty

If nudged to wake

Wake

Ask God

If He was speaking to you

Since I could not hear still

I asked

About revealing my heart’s desire

What I wanted for myself

I wanted to be wanted

Not abandoned at night like my mom did

I wanted to be talked to

Not down to like sister did

No one was interested in what I said

I wanted interactions to play

No one liked my hobbies

Did not feel like anyone listened

I asked about finances with no answer

I asked about music

I was not the delight of anyone

I was not told what was right

I was only told everything I was doing was wrong

I did not feel safe to talk

My words were criticized

For volume

Disinterest

Disgust

You are my delight

Humor is the moment of realization of the truth

Creative silly thoughts

Hilarious white head wall

Creativity in simplicity of rocks and sticks

You are not worldly culturally

You are a vulture above it

Seeing it

Knowing it

Being away from it

In your own world

Closer to the world world

The role of food in life is tiring

So funny because it is enjoyed

Yet a chore

*Godwink… “This is not the end” fear is not my future by maverick city music … Encouraging*

What have I learned about you

To use against you?

That I have not participated in?

You have made reasonable leaps of reasoning

Just a funny

Creative route

“it’s like 3-4-5 except the last one is 7 and swap is with the first number”

I am not interrogating to use against

Just fascinating that I want to know more

About a person that thinks that way

Being single has just become a dull ache

Like achy tired muscles

Like monotonous soul crushing job

Like the chores of cleaning, laundry, eating

Are you grateful for when you were pain free?

When was the last time that was?

When you were with me?

But it also meant feeling more than a dull ache of pain

As I slowly find my worth

I feel similar to all those things

That is why I dance

I found a reason to recover my achy muscles

Dancing helps the muscles

I hated my job yet could not reconcile leaving the responsibility of paying the bills

If I had a dog, I would take more attentive care of her than me

Give her routine

Each chore I do for her

I will gain as well

Stop attempting to get to know me

But I just love you more every time you talk

Just talk about something you like