LamMoving

Category: spiritual

  • Not the same

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    My attention was snatched by background lyrics

    I've got to tell my story (I'm not the same, I'm not the same, I'm not the same)
    -Hero (live) by Amen music, Aaron Moses

    That was the trigger for Sendy that night

    She is not the same

    She is rebranding

    When I said I knew her

    She heard she was the same still

    From when we were together

    But she has grown so much

    Since then

    Just as I have

    We are a better version

    Of ourselves

    We are spiritually connected still

    Going thru growth together

    Even when we were not together

    Around the same pace

    And are both feeling upward in spirit

    New growth

    Does not change the trunk of the vine

    You are the same at the core

    Beautiful

    And now you are blooming

    Fragrantly

    A different state of being

    But still the same soul

    I love

    Steadfast soul

    Final initial thought

  • Not dumb

    Recognize how to survive

    You got to do whatever you wanted

    Eat whatever you wanted

    Go where you wanted

    Mom was a passive authority

    Dad was an unreasonable and absent authority

    You seeked out joy in self desires

    Until you were taken advantage of

    And realized you had no support

    Just as I realized I had no support during the divorce

    Everyone just pretended it did not happen

    Maybe I am crazy and it is not supposed to make you feel anything

    I barely know how to recognize my feelings of joy

    I cannot process this kind of spirit crushing realization

    You figured out how to check the school, job, bills check boxes on your own

    Frustrated comparing to others in envy or spite

    They had more support

    Unfairly

    I recognize it because that is me

    I did not know how to do any of those

    I asked

    I was not guided

    I was not worth teaching

    I had to figure it out on my own

    We figured it out

    Got to the same place eventually

    With different routes

    But we are here

    Now

    Logical
    Whatever that means

    Final initial thought

  • Steadfast peace

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    Praying constantly

    Lord be with me

    Fill my body muscles bones brain cells soul

    With your spirit

    And fruit the spiritual fruit

    Imagine me being peaceful

    Through all interactions

    Same external posture… 🔗

    As dead eyes … 🔗

    Except heart posture

    Has peace from God

    That makes no sense

    To know if it went favorable for me

    I will rejoice

    To be in alignment with God’s Will

    To know when events go unfavorable for me

    It is for the Good of me

    To be admonished for going the wrong way

    To be in alignment with God’s Will

    It will bring more joy later

    So it is exciting to know the wrong way

    It is better to know you are closer to the righteous way