Category: spiritual

  • I you

    Mirrored Sendy until Sendy was gone

    Then I could only do what I wanted to do

    And I found out why you do the things you did

    It is what I would have done

    If I had worth

    You are me

    And I would be you

    If you looked for faith in God

    Over man

    Trust God Only

    Final initial thought

    Dry bones rattling

    These are the motions of my dead bones

    If they were living

    It felt weird

    To be living

    Unintentional awakening

    Final second thought

    Familiar friend

    So comfortably similar

    Final third thought

    I would gain 39 years of desert physical gains

    You would gain 36 years of spiritual gains

    Gain gals

    Final fourth thought

    So obsessed

    Said the narcissist

    To the mirror

    How do you know I play

    About my coming and going

    When I do not tell you

    Others did not know we dated

    Even if they did

    Why would they tell you

    Unless you are the one that talks about me

    And they update you

    You even talk to the not serious guy

    You are dating

    Healthy dose of self love

    Final 5th thought

    I have gotten the worst of you

    Anger, tired, exhausted, pouty, sick, scared, sad, hurt, vengeful, disappointed, upset, nauseous

  • Cheering anchor

    Know the feeling

    Of drowning out at sea

    Grabbing hold of anything

    Being alone

    Trying to keep around anyone

    That would stay

    To give value to the existing experience

    I grabbed hold of the cross

    And all of the waves were so much easier

    To move thru

    I still had to hold on tight

    With all my might

    As the choppy waters around me

    Pounded on my back

    And my face

    But I know if I just hold on

    Jesus has overcome everything

    And nothing can come against me

    That Jesus cannot beat

    He is the king

    With authority over all of nature

    Natural physical or spiritual

    I can hold on with two hand

    Or one with the other hand on one person

    He is my uplifting anchor to God

    Sendy is in my arm

    In the ascension with Jesus

    Jesus saves

    Final initial thought
  • You orchestrated

    You wanted this

    Right?

    You wanted love

    Love that would die for you

    That would put up with all your crap

    When you are acting the meanest

    You can

    And still come back

    And be nice

    You created this

    You could have accepted me for who I was

    Or you could take chunks of me away

    Until it revealed just my core

    Sendy: am I worth fighting for when you do not know what worth even means?

    Johnson: am I worth trying to fight for?

    I mirrored all the things you wanted

    You did this

    Final initial thought

    Godwink

    I was urged to get a dog

    I accidentally got the wrong dog

    The dog that just so happens to be the same dog you had growing up

    Sister just so happen to review her journal

    Recording the date my mother

    Told her to record when Dad was not home

    Mom so happen

    To give me photo of me at the same age of 9