Category: spiritual

  • Day of Rest

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    Intentionally taking a day of rest

    no projects

    discerning between daily required maintenance

    brush squat sweep water indoor plants

    tasks I can do while dancing and worshipping

    discerning between typical work made for the week

    watering outdoor plants that were watered by mother a coupld days ago

    rearranging room configuartion to more efficiently train Zen

    today doing a fast

    my last RX bar bite was 2 minutes before sunset

    my last calorie was gum by Liz at Dominic Balli concert at 1945ish

    No dishes need to be cleaned

    no food needs to be preped

    no food will need a decision to eat between

    no food will need a decision if healthy enough

    no food will need to be concerned for provision and sought

    *snatched incremental intentional distress practice

    better than unexpected serious test

    fasting once a week

    simulate “starving”

    versus and actual food crisis

    Depend on the Lord

    *unsnatched

    *snatched when a friend asks for help

    You help them

    Be interpretable

    For a higher priority

    Elena in distress

    To move out of house

    Help

    Less distress of unpacking slowly at storage

    Not needed my help

    God graced discernment for Elena

    And I

    To not ask

    And not offer

    *unsnatched

    Just relaxing in hammock

    No pressure to do anything

    Not “allowed” to do anything

    For the better of me

    *snatched does crate training count as work for Zen

    Will it give her rest today?

    No

    Will it give her more rest to be less anxious

    Yes overall if it is a daily maintenance

    If it is eventually understood

    That I only leave when it is necessary

    And not to worry when I leave

    Because I will come back

    And we can share a joyous moment of reunion

    Then a Scooby snack

    *unsnatched

    Exodus 35:2-3 NLT
    
    [2] You have six days each week for your ordinary work, but the seventh day must be a Sabbath day of complete rest, a holy day dedicated to the Lord. Anyone who works on that day must be put to death. [3] You must not even light a fire in any of your homes on the Sabbath.”

    Discern when fire means work

    Do not warm up food

    Eat only what you planned for on the day of preparation

    You do not need physical light

    To rest

    Seek the spiritual light

    To see

    And feel true warmth


    mental marker timestamp hearting a moment

    Exodus 40 anointing oil

    I want to carry an oil

    To heart my day


    participate oil

    Oil says what it is good at holding

    You must participate to attach your feeling to it

    Lavender for relaxation

    It cannot force you to relax

    But it can help you if you pavlov yourself

    Peppermint is invigorating

    You must train to uphold it’s invigorating properties


    Pick a job

    They are all for the kingdom

    I want to do them all

    They all look like fun

    Especially if it is for the kingdom

    I will not be good at any of them

    But I want to do all of them

    Just pick one and honor God in it

    I can honor God in all of them

    Will you be a skilled craftsman that God can call upon to use?

    No

    Not to the standard that I would want to give to God

    Choose one

    Until you can honor Him with an offering that will bless Him

    Then you may participate

    Another activity

  • Better Zen

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    During prayer40

    I was seeking joy for Zen

    As I prayed

    The Helper brought to mind

    What I considered as joy

    For myself

    *snatched pride of knowing better

    I did not need to love myself

    Before loving others

    I hated myself

    I can just learn What Love is

    And do that for other people

    I can deny all those things if reciprocated

    Because I would do those for myself

    If I loved myself

    I did not know how to FEEL love

    How to make it heart knowledge

    I only knew what I learned

    Through observation or question

    Not through experience

    **snatched watch somemonkey gift candy to someone they love

    Lamb does the same

    Rejects any in return

    Or self to self

    ** unsnatch

    Others worth to give what I have seen others give others

    Or give them what I observe them to like

    *unsnatch

    Worth giving joy to now

    Worth seeking

    Worth experiencing

    Source of my annoyance to Zen

    Source of the annoyance toward me

    Treat others
    As you want to be treated

    Final thought
  • Lucky trauma

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    Prayer 40 thought

    Perspective from Sendy

    You are 5 years old but now have the salary of a 36 year old

    Lucky me

    It is like I time traveled

    Lucky me

    I met someone that similarly traveled

    How many are willing to travel

    And find their younger self

    Stuck in the past

    Traumatized

    And give them the present

    Of presence

    Everyone has trauma
    Jesus breaks chains
    To be free

    Final thought