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Prayer 40 thought
Perspective from Sendy
You are 5 years old but now have the salary of a 36 year old
Lucky me
It is like I time traveled
Lucky me
I met someone that similarly traveled
How many are willing to travel
And find their younger self
Stuck in the past
Traumatized
And give them the present
Of presence
Everyone has trauma
Final thought
Jesus breaks chains
To be free
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No hangover from a late night dose of Sendy
I was Feeling the vibe
I was not allowed to explore the boundaries
I was told it was not safe
I was shut down to adventure
I was not allowed to anything
I was only allowed to tail along
I was not questioned or berated if I smiled
Fake happiness
I did not know
Where boundaries were to stay away from
I was not allowed to ask
I did not know what I was doing wrong
I was not allowed to ask
You were shown it was not safe when they leave
You were not able to explore your boundaries
Inside of a deep relationship
That journey is tiring
Since it is a new neuro pathway
Since it is tiring it needs to be worth it
You need to stick around for anything
Because I do not know what kind of help I will need
Assume I know nothing
I am new here
Assume I have some imaginary gold chain
That was actually made of lead
Weighing me down
These neuro pathways are a difficult construction site
I will be there for it all
It is safe
Final thought
Outro: Sabbath by Tekoa, Watobi
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Swirling in despair
I pray and cry to the Lord to help me
Open the Bible to Mark of the parable of the tenants killing the son
1 chronicles of David’s messengers being humiliated by Hanuman
Isaiah 45:10 to not question the Lord’s Will and He has a plan thru Jesus
It all points to Jesus
Jesus was the perfect fruit of the spirit
Live like Him and produce fruit
Jesus is the answer
Final thought