LamMoving

Category: spiritual

  • Safe

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    No hangover from a late night dose of Sendy

    I was Feeling the vibe

    I was not allowed to explore the boundaries

    I was told it was not safe

    I was shut down to adventure

    I was not allowed to anything

    I was only allowed to tail along

    I was not questioned or berated if I smiled

    Fake happiness

    I did not know

    Where boundaries were to stay away from

    I was not allowed to ask

    I did not know what I was doing wrong

    I was not allowed to ask

    You were shown it was not safe when they leave

    You were not able to explore your boundaries

    Inside of a deep relationship

    That journey is tiring

    Since it is a new neuro pathway

    Since it is tiring it needs to be worth it

    You need to stick around for anything

    Because I do not know what kind of help I will need

    Assume I know nothing

    I am new here

    Assume I have some imaginary gold chain

    That was actually made of lead

    Weighing me down

    These neuro pathways are a difficult construction site

    I will be there for it all

    It is safe

    Final thought

    Outro: Sabbath by Tekoa, Watobi

  • Speak to me

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    Swirling in despair

    I pray and cry to the Lord to help me

    Open the Bible to Mark of the parable of the tenants killing the son

    1 chronicles of David’s messengers being humiliated by Hanuman

    Isaiah 45:10 to not question the Lord’s Will and He has a plan thru Jesus

    It all points to Jesus

    Jesus was the perfect fruit of the spirit

    Live like Him and produce fruit

    Jesus is the answer

    Final thought

  • Relate

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    Relate to nothing feeling clean enough (messy home cleaning floors, organizing)

    Relate to succumbing to vice

    But not too deep into hard drugs

    But wanting to feel something

    Food. Drink. Scream. Smoke. Frustration

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    Relate to having the fridge empty for less stress

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    Driving back after backyard bowls bday breakfast with Benson

    Relate by for King& country

    Sendy constantly on my mind

    Relate to the dumpster being the new home for spring cleaning

    Relate to my world Unraveling by diving into the past and learning about Jesus

    Relate to the refrigerator. Anxiety of being filled

    Relate to needing a whole day laying around and doing nothing

    Relate to being disappointed in people

    Relate to daily simple tasks being so difficult

    Relate in the awe of the glory of creation

    Relate to eating everything

    Relate to eating nothing