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  • Rebuttal

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    Inhaled a deep holding breath of prayer

    That the Lord help guide me

    In this little session

    Of nourishment physically (mmm steak)

    Of nourishment spiritually

    Just going about life

    Learning about myself

    Learning I can discover what I like

    Like how to cut a steak

    To make the texture more enjoyable

    Neither are wrong

    One is just more enjoyable

    Subjective

    I do not need validation from others

    To know I enjoy it

    For myself

    Sendy argument: 

    You are going to get bored and leave me again

    Rebuttal:

    I do not get bored

    I get creative

    I was forced at a young age

    To learn how to entertain myself

    My worth tethered me to others

    That were not interested

    In my interests

    I learned how to turn on the screen saver

    I learned how to imagine simulations

    I learned to not share them since I was not asked

    *snatched heaven

    Like rain on a tin roof

    By blessing of for blessed by ashnic86

    *Godwinked I spilled my coarse salt

    That I just bought from WinCo

    As I sang in worship

    I brushed the unsalvageable pieces into the trash

    And it sounded like rain on a tin roof

    As it landed on the paper in the trash can

  • Not dumb

    Recognize how to survive

    You got to do whatever you wanted

    Eat whatever you wanted

    Go where you wanted

    Mom was a passive authority

    Dad was an unreasonable and absent authority

    You seeked out joy in self desires

    Until you were taken advantage of

    And realized you had no support

    Just as I realized I had no support during the divorce

    Everyone just pretended it did not happen

    Maybe I am crazy and it is not supposed to make you feel anything

    I barely know how to recognize my feelings of joy

    I cannot process this kind of spirit crushing realization

    You figured out how to check the school, job, bills check boxes on your own

    Frustrated comparing to others in envy or spite

    They had more support

    Unfairly

    I recognize it because that is me

    I did not know how to do any of those

    I asked

    I was not guided

    I was not worth teaching

    I had to figure it out on my own

    We figured it out

    Got to the same place eventually

    With different routes

    But we are here

    Now

    Logical
    Whatever that means

    Final initial thought

  • Steadfast peace

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    Praying constantly

    Lord be with me

    Fill my body muscles bones brain cells soul

    With your spirit

    And fruit the spiritual fruit

    Imagine me being peaceful

    Through all interactions

    Same external posture… 🔗

    As dead eyes … 🔗

    Except heart posture

    Has peace from God

    That makes no sense

    To know if it went favorable for me

    I will rejoice

    To be in alignment with God’s Will

    To know when events go unfavorable for me

    It is for the Good of me

    To be admonished for going the wrong way

    To be in alignment with God’s Will

    It will bring more joy later

    So it is exciting to know the wrong way

    It is better to know you are closer to the righteous way