Zen

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Whoever Jesus sets free is free indeed

Vices by Isley

Jesus set me free of my sins

So I am free indeed to eat of the spiritual fruit

Spirit lead me

By influence music, Michael ketterer

Gripped me

And yeeted me into the air

In gratitude

Painful gratitude

For God

For Jesus

For the Holy Spirit

Trust in you even when I cannot see you

Spirit lead me by influence music, Michael keeterer

God showed my mind’s eye

Myself crying alone in the middle of the night after my father left

For my mother

And she was sleeping in the closet

Probably crying

But I thought it was just to be away from me

But I trusted her to be there

At a minimum

Oh Sendy

If you knew what it meant

That I do everything I knew how to do

I am so sorry i did not know how to do it

The way you wanted

But I did not know

How could I have known

No one wanted to teach me

They were there

So I trusted them

But no one wanted to teach me

And I was so afraid of making any mistakes

Why am I not allowed to make mistakes?

You do not want to teach me nor allow me to make mistakes?

So when I found a God who made everything

That allows me to make mistakes

And says He is always there for me

Giving me the righteous rules

Lightly admonishing me

Unless I disobey

Then firmly

Unless I genuinely did not know

Then mercily

Unless I disobeyed when I did know

Then passionately

Unless I am a bent reed

Then gently

*snatched patience

I thought I had it

I was prideful

I repent

It was my strength in self denial, self control

That shutdown my emotions and responses