Better Zen

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During prayer40

I was seeking joy for Zen

As I prayed

The Helper brought to mind

What I considered as joy

For myself

*snatched pride of knowing better

I did not need to love myself

Before loving others

I hated myself

I can just learn What Love is

And do that for other people

I can deny all those things if reciprocated

Because I would do those for myself

If I loved myself

I did not know how to FEEL love

How to make it heart knowledge

I only knew what I learned

Through observation or question

Not through experience

**snatched watch somemonkey gift candy to someone they love

Lamb does the same

Rejects any in return

Or self to self

** unsnatch

Others worth to give what I have seen others give others

Or give them what I observe them to like

*unsnatch

Worth giving joy to now

Worth seeking

Worth experiencing

Source of my annoyance to Zen

Source of the annoyance toward me

Treat others
As you want to be treated

Final thought